Depression-katya_zamo

Hello, It is said that everyone has mental disorders, but they only become a problem if they start to interfere with normal living. Lately I have the feeling that I seem to have brought it so far and I do not know what exactly to do. I feel hopeless. I haven't been in "top form" for a few years now, but it lasted. I said to myself, "tighten up" and somehow screamed. Except that a lot of bad things have happened in the last half year and it's as if I collapsed ... my father has cancer and two or three years ago all the doctors announced that there was nothing more to do. "Let him die," they say. I seek help from foreign hospitals and until recently they fixed him with a lot of treatment. But now even foreign hospitals say there is nothing to do and refuse to accept it. My grandmother died, so did my best friend ... I feel alone. I am already in my thirties, a specialist with a high salary, but at the cost of a lot of work and constant stress. They are never satisfied with their work, even when I work faster than expected, and lately (after the recent events) I seem to have completely collapsed. I'm constantly tired, I have a hard time concentrating, I can't sleep, I'm behind work - that's why I have problems. Apparently from there my self-esteem dropped terribly and the voice that everyone has and pulls it down became very strong. I feel like I'm about to be fired at any moment and I'm scratching my teeth with my teeth and claws. I'm afraid to ask myself what I or my family will do if I lose my job ... I don't know what to do anymore ... I realize that there is no other advice but "tighten up!" And I will do my best, but now I'm not sure I can. a specialist with a high salary, but at the cost of a lot of work and constant stress. They are never satisfied with their work, even when I work faster than expected, and lately (after the recent events) I seem to have completely collapsed. I'm constantly tired, I have a hard time concentrating, I can't sleep, I'm behind work - that's why I have problems. Apparently from there my self-esteem dropped terribly and the voice that everyone has and pulls it down became very strong. I feel like I'm about to be fired at any moment and I'm scratching my teeth with my teeth and claws. I'm afraid to ask myself what I or my family will do if I lose my job ... I don't know what to do anymore ... I realize that there is no other advice but "tighten up!" And I will do my best, but now I'm not sure I can. a specialist with a high salary, but at the cost of a lot of work and constant stress. They are never satisfied with their work, even when I work faster than expected, and lately (after the recent events) I seem to have completely collapsed. I'm constantly tired, I have a hard time concentrating, I can't sleep, I'm behind work - that's why I have problems. Apparently from there my self-esteem dropped terribly and the voice that everyone has and pulls it down became very strong. I feel like I'm about to be fired at any moment and I'm scratching my teeth with my teeth and claws. I'm afraid to ask myself what I or my family will do if I lose my job ... I don't know what to do anymore ... I realize that there is no other advice but "tighten up!" And I will do my best, but now I'm not sure I can. even when I'm working faster than expected, and lately (after the recent events) I seem to have completely collapsed. I'm constantly tired, I have a hard time concentrating, I can't sleep, I'm behind work - that's why I have problems. Apparently from there my self-esteem dropped terribly and the voice that everyone has and pulls it down became very strong. I feel like I'm about to be fired at any moment and I'm scratching my teeth with my teeth and claws. I'm afraid to ask myself what I or my family will do if I lose my job ... I don't know what to do anymore ... I realize that there is no other advice but "tighten up!" And I will do my best, but now I'm not sure I can. even when I'm working faster than expected, and lately (after the recent events) I seem to have completely collapsed. I'm constantly tired, I have a hard time concentrating, I can't sleep, I'm behind work - that's why I have problems. Apparently from there my self-esteem dropped terribly and the voice that everyone has and pulls it down became very strong. I feel like I'm about to be fired at any moment and I'm scratching my teeth with my teeth and claws. I'm afraid to ask myself what I or my family will do if I lose my job ... I don't know what to do anymore ... I realize that there is no other advice but "tighten up!" And I will do my best, but now I'm not sure I can. I fall behind in work - hence the problems. Apparently from there my self-esteem dropped terribly and the voice that everyone has and pulls it down became very strong. I feel like I'm about to be fired at any moment and I'm scratching my teeth with my teeth and claws. I'm afraid to ask myself what I or my family will do if I lose my job ... I don't know what to do anymore ... I realize that there is no other advice but "tighten up!" And I will do my best, but now I'm not sure I can. I fall behind in work - hence the problems. Apparently from there my self-esteem dropped terribly and the voice that everyone has and pulls it down became very strong. I feel like I'm about to be fired at any moment and I'm scratching my teeth with my teeth and claws. I'm afraid to ask myself what I or my family will do if I lose my job ... I don't know what to do anymore ... I realize that there is no other advice than "tighten up!" And I will do my best, but now I'm not sure I can. tighten up! "I won't and I'll do my best, but I'm not sure I can anymore. tighten up! "I won't and I'll do my best, but I'm not sure I can anymore.