I am 20 years old, I study in Sofia and my mother tracks. From a young age I was instilled with anxiety, which rarely stops, a sense of quota anyway. The problem comes from the fact that my father constantly traveled to this day, he is a sailor and I missed the male model, security at home and I remember many situations , in which it seemed hopeless to me, sense my mother, my grandmother startled mega very much and I next to them and I am planted ... I am very angry about you because lately I do not know where I am. Meaning I always expect that something can go wrong, I film myself, I even realize it, but the feeling is disgusting and eats me. I just can't sit still in one place without some movies spinning in my head. I have developed a very bad habit of thinking that there can be no good moment, or if it is good, then there is a trick, something naughty follows, it's as if my destiny has assigned me bad things and apart from the fact that I am instilled with this as thinking, I also immediately make an association because of past bad experiences. As a child I hung in hospitals at 2 for a month after a year for 2 weeks, hernia surgery at 5 I'm not kidding is ridiculous .. I hate hospitals dentists and so on. The smell alone made me sick. There is a lack of security. The father supports the family, but they are stuck with some loans and the money goes away and he is a sailor and has minor health problems, and I wished him bad things because I was a dumb paw as a child, it's a pity I didn't eat a fight ... And a lot of money goes for my support I strain that I am a burden to them, I study I look to be exactly everything so far I'm going I catch the material but the money is eating me I'm waiting for the session to pass and to start work to support myself, wise alternatives for mangoes rub my money just not because they are very important but because they give security wise business schemes with my specialty I want to pay our due one day. I've been very tense lately and my city has some nasty meaning, I have an awesome band, it's cool too, but the place is very crowded and very hellishly dynamic, and I come from the sea and I'm far to travel often, it takes a long time to travel. I smoke hard in a box a day and I just didn't know. How to calm down? I come from the neighborhood with a suit poor in fat, I spent the last 2 days without money, it's good that I have money from ours. The car calms me down from time to time, but whether or not to set aside money for a psychologist, I have no one to express my grief to, still I know a lot of people from only 3 months ..
1 gianella_russo answered
Hi, I'm a girl, but until recently I also suffered from constant tension (probably lasted 6 months). I noticed in myself that I (like you) think too much about my future realization and whether I will make good money to support myself. I see another similarity with you in the fact that I also blame my family environment for instilled anxiety. Also, I personally compared myself too much with my other colleagues at the university, but I realized that there is no point in envy and gossip - they just squeeze you. At one point I decided I couldn't keep sitting inside and just worrying. I tried to go out more with people I liked, I decided to spend my excess energy with sports (fitness, swimming, yoga, long walks of 15,000 steps a day) and things later returned to normal. And for the future, my advice is this: you made it up very well to start a business. You will feel engaged and useful to yourself and yours. Just make sure it's not so stressful that it doesn't interfere with your exams. Don't be ashamed and worried that you are poor, because in most cases such people are the most motivated to change their lives and achieve it in the end! PS For a psychologist / psychotherapist, I also thought about myself, but it seems very expensive to me and I gave up and did these things.