Hello! I am a 26-year-old woman, I grew up without a father, but on the other hand I am oversatisfied with my mother. I have never missed absolutely anything in my life. On the contrary. I was raised literally like a painted egg. With unconditional love from my mother and her parents. My father didn't die, he just never cared about me. I have been an artist since I was a child, I have performed in various spheres of show business. I sing, I dance, I have also played in theaters. From a conscious age, I know exactly what I want from life. Namely, career. I graduated in pop and jazz singing, went on tour in my student years, I enjoyed so to speak secular life and attention. In general, a great life, just the way I want it. I lived in complete harmony with myself. I felt free and winged. Here is the moment to add that hand in hand with the career go and alcohol and drugs without which I can not. Yes, I love partying, drinking and shaking! And I'm not ashamed of that! Of course I'm not a drug addict, I do it by going to a disco once a week! I don't see anything wrong with going out to a bar with friends to drink a few vodkas and hit a few lines, but the tension has to break out. During the week I work on tasks and I can't remember. I just like to break up the weekend to recharge with new pleasant emotions for the week, because that's how I unload and feel good. By no means is it drug addiction and alcoholism. So ... sing your heart until I fell in love and became attached to a boy in pain 5 years ago. Things have become serious and we are in a serious official relationship. He is the boy of my dreams, I always imagined that the man next to me would look and be just like him.
My dream just transformed and came from flesh and blood in my life. Everything is fine, but ... this man wants a child! He is obsessed with children! His fixed idea is that by the end of this year / the beginning of next I should have given birth! In fact, this means that I have to end my good life here! All my goals and dreams are here! Many of you will tell me that nothing ends, but it does not! To me, a child means the end of the world! I don't feel successful in what I'm doing so I can afford to retire, albeit temporarily! Now I am in the heyday of my career, of my strengths, I have started to achieve more and more successes, such as I have always dreamed of!
And suddenly the boy I love endlessly can't wait anymore, he threatens me with separation if his annoying dream doesn't come true soon! And to top it all off, he lives with me in my mother's apartment, who is infinitely uncomfortable with the whole situation that we live in her home. We don't shine with special finances. Enough for us, but also for a baby ... he is aware of my lifestyle and supports me in my endeavors, he knows that when I go out with friends on Friday and Saturday I drink and hit a few traits - he does not agree with that, but again because the baby in question who wants to do it for me reads to me like I'm listening to my great-grandmother. His friends also know that I'm in love with my life for the third year in a row and they read to me that I should have stopped, that it's time, and how can I explain to them that I have dreamed of such a life and my life now gives me a chance to rob your dreams and enjoy them. And apart from the fact that I am only 26, that life is ahead of me, that we do not have 5 stotinki in our pocket and we live with my mother under one roof, no one touches it. They only know how to criticize me! He is 10 years older than me.
I admit I don't want another! I just want to live a few more years like this, to finish my career, and then I will eventually think about it! Although I am not one of those people who love children and loves to have them, I tell you honestly. Basically, I want a quiet life, children are a burden and an obstacle to peace. I also told him that now we live great and we don't need a paw to burden us. But he is crazy about it. He doesn't know where and how he will look at it, but when I tell him he is angry, we even parted for a day or two because of these words of mine which are actually the truth. I don't know what to do, I'm telling you honestly. I love my life, I love alcohol and drugs, but I also love it