Confession

Hello how are you? .. you must be better off without me and my crazy presence .. I set you free to be happy even though .. I confess to you .. you are still missing and in pain .. it is so hard for me to forget you .. even if It's windy, I'm ready to forgive you .. You have no idea how attached I was .. you have no idea how I felt a piece of my heart and only your "hello" was important among thousands of others .. I know I will recover , I know the time every wound heals .. I deleted all your photos, I deleted all your songs sent to me .. I have only one left .. sad as our separation .. I admit, I hurt you .. I'm sorry it happened, but the time back did not is coming back .. Hell, why was he so cruel? !! , why didn't you give me one last chance, I was ready to erase everything .. but your pride wounded, didn't allow, became so cold, and with his words he beat me to the point of unbearable pain .. Why are you so extreme ?? .. and how good everything was in the beginning, remember? , no, understand it, not because I was a stranger and interesting to you, but because somehow he found a part of himself in me .. There was a strong attraction, as if some inexplicable attraction connected us, even if we were complete strangers, we felt in a strange and confusing way close .. completely obsessed .. Admit it, you loved me .. maybe it was love for a small, innocent child, but you felt a special tenderness for me .. for you I was a fragile flower, to which in fact you were afraid to touch .. And you for me was the person who predisposed me to feel safe, the only one to whom I trusted my secrets, the only one with whom I shared my fears and pain. It hurts madly .. I can't hold back my tears again .. I hope one day you forgive me and I hope you forget .. I did not want to make you feel like that .. believe me .. I'm not bad .. no, but as you said, I have built some barriers and a world in which I was not ready to let you in .. you're right, it would hurt .. God, I miss you, but I have no right to go back, I killed everything .. Will I see you? , will the day come when we will see each other? , by chance, casually .. I want to believe .. and I will believe .. Sometimes it is better to leave everything that has to happen in the hands of Fate .. it was she who met us quite by accident .. and then separate us .. Maybe it's a test .. you have no idea how I want to write to you again .. but I don't have that right .. I upset you enough .. you don't trust me anymore .. for you I became one impersonal liar .. Ah, just how it hurts me .. I punished myself, you're right .. I lost you .. I hate myself, and you .. I LOVE! The little angel (be happy, let me meet more true love, your girl ... you deserve it), for my boy with the beautiful blue eyes.