Concealment Of Feelings

It all started 8 months ago. A close friend of mine and I decided to go for a walk, met three boys, had an easy adventure. Everything ended with them the same evening, but he and I continued to see each other for 1 month. One day I realized that he had a serious relationship that lasted almost a year and I gave up on him. But later we started going out in a company, with one of his friends who grew up as children we fell in love together. It all started too fast and for fun. We saw him secretly, he didn't want the others to know about us, in front of the other friends from the company he pretended that he didn't know me, that he didn't see me, that I wasn't there (it hurt me terribly), and when we both stayed on his own, he was so kind, so gentle .. And so every night we started seeing each other secretly. One day he told me that he didn't want to deal with me anymore because our friends were starting to suspect, I agreed, but it was too hard for me because I was already in love. I changed, I cried every day, I was constantly lethargic, I was not myself.

My best friend is very worried about this sudden change of mine and asks me if there is anything I can share with her. I shared everything with her, and she told everyone. He understood that I had told about us and said that he no longer wanted to see and hear me. Some time passed, he looked for me himself, asked for an intimate relationship, but I was afraid because I was still a virgin. One evening they sent us away and he pulled me aside, took me to a place and said that he had something very important to say about our relationship. I went with him, I trusted him. He took me to a place and wanted me to let him go, I loved him so much, I was ready for anything for him and I lied to him that I was open. And with that thought he started blackmailing me, he told me please if you love me, this is the time to prove to me that you love me if we don't do it now I will never look at you again. I was very afraid of losing him, he promised me that things would get better between us, that we would not hide, that everything would be very different. I believed him. I surrendered to him.

After a day or two, he started looking for reasons to fight. We fought for a week or two and then he was always looking for me alone. But he still hadn't kept any of his promises. He became jealous of boys, which I told you about at the beginning of his friend with whom we became friends terribly. We became like brothers, we shared everything and one day we were walking and this boy hugged me quite friendly and my lover, seeing this, got angry and shouted and stopped talking to me. And so for about 2/3 days. We went out in the evening and when he saw me he remembered the hug and kicked me twice and slapped me. He started arguing with his friends about me but denied having feelings or being jealous, and that was for 8 months. I consult friends, girlfriends and they tell me that he is only looking for me for one sex, but I am sure the opposite if he is jealous, he quarrels with his best childhood friends because of me, not to tease me, not to hug me, defends me behaves shift well, but just doesn't recognize it.

Please tell me your opinion, tell me what to do; (( And so for about 2/3 days. We went out in the evening and when he saw me he remembered the hug and kicked me twice and slapped me. He started arguing with his friends about me but denied having feelings or being jealous, and that was for 8 months. I consult friends, girlfriends and they tell me that he is only looking for me for one sex, but I am sure the opposite if he is jealous, he quarrels with his best childhood friends because of me, not to tease me, not to hug me, defends me behaves shift well, but just doesn't recognize it. Please tell me your opinion, tell me what to do;