Hello, I will use anonymity to tell everything! Some time ago, a boy (17) and I had some mutual feelings - it all ended because he wanted to. He was really my first love - I fell head over heels in love with all my heart. With each passing day, I learn more and more about him from other people - which turn out to be true, for a number of reasons. First, he has some kind of heart disease, if someone hits him, something very serious can happen to him .... Second, he is bipolar - he changes his mood for a short time - I had noticed it, but I don't think it could be a disease at all. Third, he stutters a hell of a lot - but that doesn't bother me either. I want to be next to him, and he next to me ... I've swallowed everything else and it doesn't bother me. He hid these things from me, once I saw him faint in front of the school, I asked him what he had lied about, whether on nervous grounds. He's lying to me that he practices aikido, is it possible for a person with such a heart disease to practice such a dangerous and martial sport? I am very worried about him, maybe he is living his dream of aikido, but at school I often see him fighting as a joke with friends - but one day a toy will make him cry. For several days now this is the only thing in my head, I constantly follow him with my eyes - I am on thorns ... Otherwise he has repeatedly told me that I am the most interested person for him who knows, but we have stopped all contact, and now even he passes me at school, and I care so much about him ... Another thing that kills me from the inside is that he is currently "fishing, busy" with a girl who got the name "whore" because she slept with a boy on a field trip ... and she's in 8th grade, but anyway. And then in the woods, he was the first to stick, so far so good, but with him she clears her name, she doesn't care about him as much as I do .. I don't expect him to understand, I'm even afraid to ask for advice, because even I don't know what you would advise me .. Share if you feel like me, and what I can do, if I can do anything at all, be it for him or for me. Thanks, girl of 15.
1 chunkynurse20 answered
There is clearly no mutual sense of interest and concern. Nowadays, the more indifferent you behave, the more they will appreciate you. You are a good girl who is not appreciated by this boy. Find another boy, or find a different hobby. He is not touched by the fact that you care about him and love him. Let him fish, the time will come when he will realize what kind of person you are.