It's hard to admit, but I'm clinging to material things because I suffer from complexes. As a child, I lived in poverty, not because my parents were poor, but because they were frugal people. I always wore my sister's clothes and went to school in the same clothes all year. I wore torn shoes and many children made fun of me, and my parents were too busy to pay attention to me. Later, when I was 13-14 years old, I learned to wash my clothes because my mother didn't do it, I didn't want new clothes because I didn't want to burden my parents and I always laughed at school. I didn't even want to go out in the school hallways because my clothes were faded, stained, and sometimes short. At university I did not make this mistake and I had a lot of clothes, a lot of shoes, a lot of bags and a lot of unnecessary souvenirs. To me, they are like a treasure. But I also had a lot of girlfriends, thanks to the fact that I don't look bad anymore. Now I'm striving for a tidy, clean home, tastefully furnished and looking like the ones in the magazines. I don't have my own home, but I don't stop investing in whatever I like. And I understand that I will never have what I want. But my self-esteem is hurt, and it is with the purchases that I feel good. When I see something in a store, even if I don't buy it, I go home and I don't stop thinking about what application I would find for it, I don't stop thinking about this item for at least a whole week. I even admit that I don't think soberly when determining that an object should be mine. I don't really need that, but I'm closer to that dream. Can it be said that this is a sick ambition or mine is a disease. I can live without these material things, but I don't feel comfortable. And my husband loves without wanting to break my belongings, just because our house is cramped and everything goes to waste. Are my parents to blame and is that why I now want my child to have new clothes all the time, to look neat, clean and to save the problem I had? F28
1 jonasbrothers answered
Fruit of the consumer society.