Change Is Inevitable, But I Don't Know What To Do

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Hello, I am a man of 24 and I decided to write on this site, because there is really no one to discuss such a topic with. I know there are many others like it, but I really need to share what's bothering me. I'm not happy at all and I don't know how to change this thing. I made some wrong choices and everything went in a completely different direction. I don't go to university because I had to support myself, I actually dropped out, but all my acquaintances my age have already graduated. I work something that does not require any active thinking, work that can be done mechanically. I work 12 hours a day. For years my life has been the same, work and then home and that's it. I can't talk about a friend, after a few disappointments I seemed to give up and look. And I look good, women like me, but apparently I never managed to learn exactly how to behave with a woman. I'm too good, even naive. I have a feeling that I am seriously starting to lag behind with my social skills. I tried to change, to reconsider my views and beliefs, and maybe there was a result, but in general almost nothing has changed. I can say that I have no friends. I have people I have known for a long time, but I can already feel how our views are radically different. All they do when they go out is pour alcohol and if you don't, you just don't fit in with them. They are good and intelligent boys, but that has not changed him. I don't have any contact with new people, I don't meet anyone, I don't make new contacts and that weighs terribly on me. The routine literally ruins me. Yes, you'll say you're complaining, but there are people with very serious problems and I do not deny it, but to be so young and not happy, to watch how the people around you do all sorts of things really starts to weigh on you. In general, I've been alone my whole life. I have no real friends or girlfriend. And I've always been a terribly good person since I was little. I don't think the patterns I've adopted from my parents help me much. In recent years, it has been even worse, because I hear only complaints about everything, especially from my father, who must be the head of the family, and unfortunately I never saw from him real determination and fighting spirit. I keep telling myself all my life that I don't want to be like him, he's a great person, but this defeatist thinking can ruin you. I don't know what to do to change my life, so I would like you to give me ideas and advice. Give me some guidelines on what I can change, what I can do to get a girlfriend, because in the bars I found out that it can't happen, is it too late to enroll in university at all, tell me what you think would be useful for me, for to change my life at least a little. Change is really inevitable, otherwise it's no wonder that one day another life will just end. Then at least I will feel at least a little more important because of the attention they will give me.

Last Updated
September 12, 2020
Author:
shiro36run

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