I am a 21 year old girl. I've been obsessed with losing weight for a long time. In fact, I don't remember a period in my life when I didn't worry about my weight. Yes, even when I was ten. I have been suffering from bulimia since the beginning of September. I don't even know, I can't make my own diagnoses. I'm just afraid of gaining weight and I also want to lose weight. I have been vomiting for several months after eating. If it seems to me that it is a lot or not in my diet. I try to just reduce the food, but it doesn't always work out. I am hungry and I love this feeling. It makes me happy with myself. I am intoxicated by the feeling of control and watching my body transform day by day. I love it when the bones start to see through. one grapefruit for breakfast and two tomatoes for lunch are enough for me. I'm vegan. I only eat fruits and vegetables. I generally did not eat meat. And if I eat something else of animal origin, I vomit. Every day.
That doesn't mean all the food is gone. I am 173 cm tall and weigh 59 kg. When I started after the new year I was 69. So fat that I don't know how I was patient at all. I constantly watch blogs with pictures of skinny girls and I want to be like them. I fail in everything else, I can't do anything and this is my salvation. I know I have a problem, but I don't want to be fat, I want to gain at least 55 kg and then just keep them and stop. But I can't wait, I can't wait! To regain my previous weight - never! I would starve for life. I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone. that all the food is gone. I am 173 cm tall and weigh 59 kg. When I started after the new year I was 69. So fat that I don't know how I was patient at all. I constantly watch blogs with pictures of skinny girls and I want to be like them. I fail in everything else, I can't do anything and this is my salvation. I know I have a problem, but I don't want to be fat, I want to gain at least 55 kg and then just keep them and stop. But I can't wait, I can't wait! To regain my previous weight - never! I would starve for life. I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone. that all the food is gone. I am 173 cm tall and weigh 59 kg.
When I started after the new year I was 69. So fat that I don't know how I was patient at all. I constantly watch blogs with pictures of skinny girls and I want to be like them. I fail in everything else, I can't do anything and this is my salvation. I know I have a problem, but I don't want to be fat, I want to gain at least 55 kg and then just keep them and stop. But I can't wait, I can't wait! To regain my previous weight - never! I would starve for life. I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone. with pictures of skinny girls and I want to be like them. I fail in everything else, I can't do anything and this is my salvation. I know I have a problem, but I don't want to be fat, I want to gain at least 55 kg and then just keep them and stop. But I can't wait, I can't wait! To regain my previous weight - never! I would starve for life. I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone. with pictures of skinny girls and I want to be like them. I fail in everything else, I can't do anything and this is my salvation. I know I have a problem, but I don't want to be fat, I want to gain at least 55 kg and then just keep them and stop. But I can't wait, I can't wait! To regain my previous weight - never! I would starve for life.
I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone. I would starve for life. I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone. I would starve for life. I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone.
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Not eating is not just possible, you have to move a lot. Every day I walk 2 km walking to work and 2 km returning home. At work, I'm also on the move. I don't have breakfast, I don't have lunch because I don't have time, I have dinner when I go home and eat whatever I want to eat, enough to fill me up. I was about 70-75 kg at a height of 1. 69, I have been 49.5 kg for 7 months now and I have not moved. I mostly cook - soups, rice, potatoes, lentils, eat and salami. Walking boosts metabolism and after eating I go to the toilet. I can't understand how much pleasure it gives you to torment yourself, even when I roared that I was an elephant I didn't bother to vomit