Before And Now

The Story

Hi girl, I'm 17. In general, I will describe myself with long dark hair, I like to read, I don't smoke. I am a scholar, ambitious with big goals for the future, I have the company of close friends, I have serious relationships. In general, I feel happy, but at times I like to be what I am now .. I want to say that sometimes I fall into some thoughts and dramas and I want .. to cut my hair short and dye it blue for example or red , I want to hang out with someone in the disco and have sex in a toilet, I really want to get very drunk, to drill 5 holes in my ear and navel, to go with torn tights, to smoke wherever and whenever I want, not to I go to class and not worry about absences and the university and apologetic notes, people's opinions and everything. I just sometimes want to be that kid in 8th grade, yes I did these things then, I didn't care. I have now taken on the role of a purposeful and intelligent young girl who must not have a bad reputation and must be ordinary and normal. When I was in 8th grade I went out with a drug company, I did all the things I described to you and I didn't care, I quarreled with ours, they punished me, I ran and did all sorts of nonsense, but I was happy, I was naughty and then I decided that this is not is a time in life that I'm not mature ... and that I need to tighten up. Well, I tightened up ... now what Before, my boys were a one-day activity, now I'm a month and a year old. Those in my class see me as changed in a dull direction, like a boring early grown-up girl. Somehow now I can't be what I used to be, I want to be, but somehow my thinking on the one hand doesn't allow it if I do everything, what I have described to you I have the feeling that I will fail myself, my parents and my future and the only things that at least slightly touch the feeling of a kid and freedom are at parties smoking cigarettes, alcohol, driving a car with friends and from from time to time I change my hair color again, but not in bright colors. But these things happen outside of school, I'm at school like a book rat and I'm worried about the exams, I don't know if anyone understands me ... I want to relax and do what I want without thinking about the consequences ...

Last Updated
November 02, 2020
Author:
AnnaDroid

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