Hi girl, I'm 17. In general, I will describe myself with long dark hair, I like to read, I don't smoke. I am a scholar, ambitious with big goals for the future, I have the company of close friends, I have serious relationships. In general, I feel happy, but at times I like to be what I am now .. I want to say that sometimes I fall into some thoughts and dramas and I want .. to cut my hair short and dye it blue for example or red , I want to hang out with someone in the disco and have sex in a toilet, I really want to get very drunk, to drill 5 holes in my ear and navel, to go with torn tights, to smoke wherever and whenever I want, not to I go to class and not worry about absences and the university and apologetic notes, people's opinions and everything. I just sometimes want to be that kid in 8th grade, yes I did these things then, I didn't care. I have now taken on the role of a purposeful and intelligent young girl who must not have a bad reputation and must be ordinary and normal. When I was in 8th grade I went out with a drug company, I did all the things I described to you and I didn't care, I quarreled with ours, they punished me, I ran and did all sorts of nonsense, but I was happy, I was naughty and then I decided that this is not is a time in life that I'm not mature ... and that I need to tighten up. Well, I tightened up ... now what Before, my boys were a one-day activity, now I'm a month and a year old. Those in my class see me as changed in a dull direction, like a boring early grown-up girl. Somehow now I can't be what I used to be, I want to be, but somehow my thinking on the one hand doesn't allow it if I do everything, what I have described to you I have the feeling that I will fail myself, my parents and my future and the only things that at least slightly touch the feeling of a kid and freedom are at parties smoking cigarettes, alcohol, driving a car with friends and from from time to time I change my hair color again, but not in bright colors. But these things happen outside of school, I'm at school like a book rat and I'm worried about the exams, I don't know if anyone understands me ... I want to relax and do what I want without thinking about the consequences ...
1 freepik answered
It's best not to do this. I know that I start with the advice too abruptly, but after what you read - there is no other way. Now you're fine, you're on the right track ... Do you really want to repeat everything you did to have fun or something? You can achieve this, but not, by smoking cigarettes, drinking, running away from classes and all the other things that you will not achieve anything in the future ... And by gathering with friends (but not drug addicts, like those from the previous one) you class) who are intelligent, smart, funny, etc. Those from your previous class will not be "nobody" in the future, while you can be "someone" if you understand me exactly what I mean. Do you want to make your parents constantly angry and something happens to them (God forbid!)? Please, think over my words and do not do all this nonsense, because with them you will achieve nothing! Think about what you want to tell your child one day ... How did you have a good future or how did you smoke and run away from home? I hope I was useful! L.