I'm 15 and I haven't had a serious friend in a year. We finished quietly with him, then a boy dumped me and I became depressed. I developed trichotillomania (this is pulling my hair) and so it happened that I have to wear my hair constantly up, because otherwise it looks very ugly and my face looks completely different when my whole nape is in thinning hair and the back is lush .. you remember. Now that I'm alone, I told myself that I would make an effort to recover. I continued to play sports. I wasn't looking for boys until a while. I met one. Wonderful, amazing, perfect. Unknown neighbor at the entrance. I never dared to talk to him, and then all our acquaintances said nasty things about him, which are obviously obvious. With the constant wearing of my hair in a ponytail, I got a pretty ordinary look. But my face is beautiful according to people. I even decided to follow the example of a friend and no longer wear any makeup for more than a month. I have girlfriends who ... I wouldn't want to offend them, but ... I outdo them in some things (I'm talking about facial features). Is it possible for one of them to win all the boys just because the top of the swimsuit is full of a lot of material and because it is smaller and thinner than me, and there is nothing more in the face I have a tight body because of sports, but what to do, my breasts are very small. I'm already desperate! Nobody looks at me on the street because of my dull hair. And the problem is that those who look at me ... don't like me. Now you will probably tell me not to be with so many claims and criteria, but you are not right. Neither I nor any of you can FORCE someone to like - because "like" and "force" are not compatible units. I am both from a big Bulgarian city and I don't like anyone. It doesn't work even with friends anymore - they are very few, there are no boys in the company. I've experienced love twice in my life - one time to the man who dumped me last year (ie we didn't go at all, he just didn't like me). The other, a boy in my class who decided it was best not to do anything because of what others would think. I overcame both. The worst thing is this: now I can run to the hairdresser and invent either a wig or some attached locks (some complicated procedure), from there I can start wearing makeup, high shoes, etc. again. This is how I can go to the neighbor who makes my legs tremble and make his chin hang! But ... it's not me !!! You probably already understand the reason for my love failures. Beauty, which I have ... is not emphasized. And few have an experienced eye to judge a girl without a haircut and without makeup. And maybe the problem is in the behavior, you might think. What a behavior when I don't even communicate with boys anymore (except in class and with some who are just my friends)! Those at school don't pay attention to me, and I don't find it appropriate to push them. Since I would not post a photo in public, if a benefactor would like to see how I look and evaluate me as beautiful / ugly, let him leave Skype or some other type of connection (preferably the first one). Those at school don't pay attention to me, and I don't find it appropriate to push them. Since I would not post a photo in public, if a benefactor would like to see how I look and evaluate me as beautiful / ugly, let him leave Skype or some other type of connection (preferably the first one). Those at school don't pay attention to me, and I don't find it appropriate to push them. Since I would not post a photo in public, if a benefactor would like to see how I look and evaluate me as beautiful / ugly, let him leave Skype or some other type of connection (preferably the first one).
1 ninadilz answered
I think you are a very beautiful girl;) The fact that you have developed this "disease" does not mean that you still can not find your prince on a white horse :) Be the way you are yourself :) Do not become like (not that I insult them) those on the street with a hundred tons of makeup, attached hair 19 cm heels, etc. : X I'm small and I'm not a great specialist in love, but I think that if he has an interest in you, things will work out! Good luck From a little girl :)