Beating By The Grandmother

Hi, I'm a 17 year old girl. I have always lived with my grandmother because my mother has not had the opportunity to look after me before for many reasons. She would take me with her, but since she remarried her husband and did not want to look after children, I have been living with my grandmother for 17 years. I have always been grateful that she looked after me, that she gave me her money, that she was interested in me and so on, but things have been out of control for 6 years. She became critical and I don't know what happened to this woman, but she poisoned the lives of the whole family, my mother, her mother (my old grandmother), and most of all me. She insults and curses me constantly with names like - fool, miserable, whore, scoundrel, she even wished me death. He beat me up like a dog until a year ago, until I got tired of him, I poured everything out, she freaked out and so we fought, that you have no idea. I would never touch the man who raised me, but if you were caught beating your head in the ground, you would kick it. My mother can't even intervene, because my grandmother will leave me on the street and I have nowhere to go ... She has chased me from home countless times for no real reason, who knows what reason ... I have broken so many times from a roar and she doesn't even care, she comes and beats me again. I'm very tired of people. I don't know what to do. This harassment continues. A while ago we quarreled over another nonsense, because I had gone out for coffee, and you know, I have no right to go out, because she is not in a good mood and is not in the mood. From there began some threats that he would break me in a fight, turn me over. And when I ask her what I did, why she yells at me and makes me do nothing, she tells me to shut up not to answer that I have no right to speak. Tell me how to endure such a thing? I'm just really tired, I don't know how to act and how to cope! I just get upset all the time and I don't stop feeling sorry for myself.