Bad Past, How Do I Start Fresh?

The Story

When I get into a new band or meet someone, I am forced to wonder what to say about myself sometimes, because my past, hence the present, is not much to tell. First, I suffered from depression for many years and during those years I did absolutely nothing interesting, except that I graduated from school and university, I had no hobbies or friends. I can only tell bad things from those years, and I don't want to. Now I have a hobby, but I'm not good at it, I don't like it at all, I do it for personal pleasure, but this is usually done by people who really have talent. I mean, it's nothing interesting except for me. I also have some oddities. For example, I don't always have a "mood" before the holidays, I'm not happy, I'm even waiting for the moment to end, strange as it may sound. I don't want it, it's just that, because I associate them with unpleasant family events. Another oddity - I do not like to travel. This is because of a specific incident when I was 14 years old, at sea. I quarreled so fiercely with ours that I thought they would give up on me. Then they found out about one of my decisions.

The whole story is not told at all, but I don't know if I got stressed then, I just wish I was in my hometown more than anything in the world, I told myself that I would never "move" so far, it's natural from then I had to travel far many times, but I don't like it and I only do it if I have to. I have other features for which there are reasons, but "they are not for people." As a result, I look shy, like a person who doesn't like to talk about myself, like weird. This is because of a specific incident when I was 14 years old, at sea. I quarreled so fiercely with ours that I thought they would give up on me. Then they found out about one of my decisions. The whole story is not told at all, but I don't know if I got stressed then, I just want to be in my hometown more than anything in the world, I said to myself that I will never "move" so far, it is natural from then I had to travel far many times, but I don't like it and I only do it if I have to. I have other features for which there are reasons, but "they are not for people." As a result, I look shy, like a person who doesn't like to talk about himself, like weird.

This is because of a specific incident when I was 14 years old, at sea. I quarreled so fiercely with ours that I thought they would give up on me. Then they found out about one of my decisions. The whole story is not told at all, but I don't know if I got stressed then, I just want to be in my hometown more than anything in the world, I said to myself that I will never "move" so far, it is natural from then I had to travel far many times, but I don't like it and I only do it if I have to. I have other features for which there are reasons, but "they are not for people." As a result, I look shy, like a person who doesn't like to talk about himself, like weird. Then they found out about one of my decisions. The whole story is not told at all, but I don't know if I got stressed then, I just want to be in my hometown more than anything in the world, I said to myself that I will never "move" so far, it is natural from then I had to travel far many times, but I don't like it and I only do it if I have to. I have other features for which there are reasons, but "they are not for people." As a result, I look shy, like a person who doesn't like to talk about himself, like weird. Then they found out about one of my decisions.

The whole story is not told at all, but I don't know if I got stressed then, I just want to be in my hometown more than anything in the world, I said to myself that I will never "move" so far, it is natural from then I had to travel far many times, but I don't like it and I only do it if I have to. I have other features for which there are reasons, but "they are not for people." As a result, I look shy, like a person who doesn't like to talk about himself, like weird. it's natural since then I've had to travel far many times, but I don't like it and I only do it if I have to. I have other features for which there are reasons, but "they are not for people." As a result, I look shy, like a person who doesn't like to talk about himself, like weird. it's natural since then I've had to travel far many times, but I don't like it and I only do it if I have to. I have other features for which there are reasons, but "they are not for people." As a result, I look shy, like a person who doesn't like to talk about himself, like weird.

Last Updated
August 14, 2020
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