I don't know where to start, I'm 25, and every time my life has passed, I feel so old, so suffering, I went through so many difficulties, I lost many of my loved ones, I learned to survive alone. During this period there was absolutely no one next to me, my parents died at 17, however, I graduated with a master's degree, I experienced my pain alone, my best friend went to London, my parents died, I had no friend to support me and still managed everything. I didn't go the wrong way, as they say, I succeeded and I don't know exactly how, maybe because I was raised in a good family, with a good value system. I came across life very early, I failed to live my best years, for me everything was survival and now I look back and see some lost years. I will ask myself why I say so, I have managed to do everything, to cope, but during these years I did not live, I only suffered and survived and survived again. I did not succumb to the temptation to sell my soul and body ... I was on the right path, and now I see that not these women are happy and successful, others have succeeded who are ready to sell for a car or even a garment. Men pamper them for them and even marry them. You will ask me why I want to be like them, am I not strong I don't want to be strong anymore, I want to feel weak and fragile and for someone to be by my side and protect me, because I am a woman and no matter how strong we are, we will always remain women - fragile, vulnerable, in need of protection, support. I didn't have one, I'm used to it, but it hurts so much, I feel so old, and I look 20 or 21 years old, but I don't feel that way. Now I remember with nostalgia for the time when I was 16, 17, 18 years old and I think anxiously about the time after 30. I have the feeling that I lost my youth, although even strangers give me 19 20 years. The problem is that I don't feel that way, I feel like I'm 40. She's been through so many trials, lost loved ones, with a broken heart. I can only say one thing is AWFUL! I realize that the years go by and that I am getting older, and I have not seen anything good. They say that there was a crisis of 25-year-olds in Bulgaria, this is not very common, but maybe something is true, but I know it is a terrible period of balance and nostalgia. I realize that I will never go back in time and live these years like that. like my peers! although even strangers give me 19 20 years. The problem is that I don't feel that way, I feel like I'm 40. She's been through so many trials, lost loved ones, with a broken heart. I can only say one thing is AWFUL! I realize that the years go by and that I am getting older, and I have not seen anything good. They say that there was a crisis of 25-year-olds in Bulgaria, this is not very common, but maybe something is true, but I know it is a terrible period of balance and nostalgia. I realize that I will never go back in time and live these years like that. like my peers! although even strangers give me 19 20 years. The problem is that I don't feel that way, I feel like I'm 40. She's been through so many trials, lost loved ones, with a broken heart. I can only say one thing is AWFUL! I realize that the years go by and that I am getting older, and I have not seen anything good. They say that there was a crisis of 25-year-olds in Bulgaria, this is not very common, but maybe something is true, but I know it is a terrible period of balance and nostalgia. I realize that I will never go back in time and live these years like that. like my peers!
1 chicneverland answered
I have the same feeling about myself. Life is not justice, not all of us have an equal start, not all of us experience more good than bad moments, we are not equal by definition. My salvation is in the hope that the best is yet to come. I hope you find happy moments too.