Hello people. Maybe the title of this story sounds silly to you, and you're wondering how anyone might like the fact that he's an outsider at all, and I don't know. When I started this school year I found a lot of friends but since the beginning of 2019 I was abandoned and since then I feel somehow good from the fact that I am an outsider and have no friends, but when I watch others talk to each other and start laughing and I I start laughing and I think I find it kind of weird to laugh alone. I also had many friends in 2017 (not from school because I was bullied at school) but they abandoned me and I was still an outsider. Somehow I enjoy sitting all day, either on the computer or on the phone, or sitting in front of textbooks. I have only 2 girlfriends, one is my age and the other is her sister, who is 2 years younger than me. They are my only friends from kindergarten, but from so many words like "don't trust them", "be careful", etc. from ours, I have already started to trust them less. It's just that our people think they are traitors because when we agree, they always say "can I have a job in 10 minutes", "come on later that I'm bored now", "let's go out another day because today I can't, I just have work "and all that, but that's not my problem. Now I will tell you my routine during the school day and weekend. During the school days I get up, get dressed and go to school alone, sometimes with my best friend, because we only go to the same school with one of my friends. After school I go home, have lunch, start writing homework and when I'm done I'm on the computer or phone. And on weekends I'm on the phone and computer on Saturdays, I write my homework on Sundays and study my lessons. Tell me, is this a normal way of life? The other teenagers are out with groups most of the time, and I don't have friends and I'm home. Is it normal to love loneliness and love to be invisible? I just love being nobody, maybe I won't change but I want to know if it's normal.