Hello, I have been following Spodeli.net for years, but only as a reader. Today I decided to get involved as an author because I have a problem. I have fallen into a state that is difficult to explain. I will start from the fact that I am about to move to Plovdiv, I will be a student and the problem started then .... I am from a small town and now the big one is stressing me, I will live separately in a dormitory because I do not want a dormitory due to order reasons. So now we go quite often, because we are repairing the house and my stomach is shrinking, some brutal fears begin that someone will break down the door and harm me, going out I die of fear only at the sight of men with beer in hand, for example .. .. I don't know how to explain it, it's weird. I'm afraid that if I'm left alone I won't be able to cope, I won't find friends at university, I will always be the peasant from the small town and so on .... Of course these thoughts appear at any time and I start crying and I feel hopeless, sweating, my hands are shaking ... I am very scared. When I shared the problem with my mother, she told me that no one was forcing me to move to Plovdiv and if I felt better I could not do it. But I know it's for my own good and I struggled to get into the university. and if you go guess .... sedatives, antidepressants and a vicious circle begins. What is happening to me I feel so helpless. Why am I like that? I constantly blame her, but it's easiest to give up, and I want to fight. The moment I think about it, which is ahead of me and I begin to feel a devilish fear. Are these panic attacks? Please help me, I am a young person and I do not want to become addicted to drugs! I'm sorry if I bored you, but I needed to share ... For those who will write to me - You have no idea how much I thank you!
1 kiarose answered
I have been living in Plovdiv since I was 6 years old (I am now 21), you will like the city very much, don't worry about anything. The university is a really new beginning, new people, new places. Nothing will happen to you, just relax and let go.