Are There Any More Feelings And What Does He Want?

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I am a 43-year-old woman, with an older child, I have lived with a 13-year-old man, I have my own home, I have a profession and a job. 3 months ago I saw my old friend, with whom we grew up together, we talked, I asked him about a friend of his, with whom I had a relationship 15 years ago, I asked for the phone number of this old love of mine, which was my biggest love in life . I thought for 2 days and dialed the phone to hear the man I loved very much and our relationship lasted 2 years (he was married), we broke up without explanation 15 years ago, he just stopped calling, we rarely saw each other at the end of the relationship and we broke up, nor he and I fought, there was no drama, but it was hard for me, I didn't tell anyone how much I was suffering. When our relationship ended, I met my current husband and we lived together. A year after we already lived together man, about whom I mentioned call me again, came to my work, asked me how I live, what I do and I told him that I live with a man, since then he has not called again. So three months ago, after I took his phone from the friend I grew up with as a child, I called him and he recognized me, he was happy, we talked for three hours on the phone, on the viber then that evening we wrote for another two hours. The next day he sent me his photo on the viber, we hadn't seen each other for 12 years, I also sent it to him. We talked for another hour about who lives what and how. The next day he came to my work, he had been living in another city for 9 years, he got up from that city and came to see me. We talked, drank coffee, I have a company and an office and stayed until 11 pm in the office to see each other, hugged, kissed, kept me in my arms all night and did not let me go, we had sex, he said, that he regretted that he hadn't done anything to live together in the past, he hadn't left my office in the evening, he said that when he heard me on the phone his heart was pounding with excitement and he couldn't believe it. He said that he has not got along with his wife for years, they live in different rooms, from time to time they go to the theater, go shopping, but that's it.

His wife is strong financially, he makes a lot of money, he also makes money, but not as much as her. He admitted to me that 15 years since we separated he started changing women often, now he has 3 lovers who he used only for sex and they used him for the same, he rarely called them too, but when he wanted to go out with one late at home, but not very often. He told me that such feelings as they were then with me in our relationship with no one had ever experienced, many women have since gone through it, he was looking for something different and couldn't find it and now it was like that, now he only had pieces. He left late because he was married and had a trip to the city where he had lived for 9 years. The next day I called him, he said that in the evening when he came home he had a big scandal with his wife, he didn't tell me why. He promised to come see me again in two days, but ... he called a day later and said, "I'm not coming because I feel like the other women I have, like another number, and I don't want that to happen. We didn't have to have sex when we saw each other, we just had to talk. I'm not coming now, I'm going to come further, I want to think. "I agreed. Two weeks later I wrote to him on the viber, he didn't answer me, I called him, he didn't pick up my phone, the next day I wrote again, he didn't answer me again. I stopped looking for him and writing. Two weeks later, he sent me a song on Viber, which is my favorite and his, and we wrote to each other. After another week I wrote to him, but he did not answer. He neither wrote to me nor called. In the end, what he wanted, he said he would think about us, what we would do, he thought for three months, and I don't write often, he writes to Viber. I can't understand anything. I live in a medium-sized city, close to the sea, our city is nice, he also lived in this city until 9 years ago. The distance from my city to the city where he now lives is 70 km. However, the situation with this man is dark to me. I think he is afraid that we will not delve into the relationship again, as he once did, because at one time he was very depressed and in order not to get deeper again, he is careful, but I don't know if that's the case. He has a business in the other city, he is developing this business and now he is making money, he has settled there for years, he and his wife have an apartment where they both live at the moment. I have no explanation for his behavior. I hope I didn't bore you with my writing.

Last Updated
September 18, 2020
Author:
miaalovee

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