Are There Any Feelings-dope_prince

Hello, 7-8 years ago I met a boy. We were in a company that eventually fell apart, but it took years for that to happen. However, we continued to keep in touch with him and from time to time we went out for coffee. During this time, he demonstrated that he was attracted to me, he said it in front of other people in case someone started flirting with me, he said that I was with him and they would leave me alone. I always thought he was talking to himself, no matter how useless he was, and I didn't pay much attention to him. The maximum he took to shorten the physical distance was to put his hand over my knee. At that time we were still barely graduates. About 2 years ago, however, we had sex. After our long outings, we finally got there. He did not pressure me for such a thing, the decision was mine. I told him at the beginning that it was all just sex and he agreed very quickly, which I decided was over. A few days later, he called me, he was obviously drunk, and told me that he felt great after what had happened and that everything around him seemed better.

However, as we started, so we stopped. After about half a year, the story repeated itself. We had sex several times and stopped after that. After that we had no contact for about 10 months. We started writing to each other and he kept inviting me out, but at the last minute he was pushing himself away. I explained to him that I didn't like him engaging me and then the meetings would fail each time, and I didn't want him to feel obligated to go out with me just because we slept together. But he didn't stop and we didn't see each other anyway. At one point, the glass totally overflowed because he overdid it. I decided to permanently cut off contact with him and cut off all his connection with me - I deleted him from Facebook, Skype, blocked his phone number to my mobile so that he could not connect and decided that it was all over. 3-4 months later he saw me on the street. He drove past me, but didn't stop.

The next day he called me from someone else's number because he decided I wouldn't pick him up if I saw his number. He apologized, said he wanted us to fix our relationship, and so on. sweet talk. In the end, he didn't leave me until I agreed to see him. Explain to me how sad he was about me, he was on vacation with his ex-girlfriend and constantly compared her to me and how he really wanted to spend his vacation with me. He knew he was guilty, and so on. Eventually, he started inviting me to them all the time with his friends, and for a month he didn't tease me about sex at all. At one point, strange hints of children, cohabitation, marriage, etc. began. At first he didn't tell me anything directly. He had told me at first that he thought we both had a child together, but he was very frivolous. Ever since we re-established our relationship, he has no condoms in him forever. He asked me what we would do if it ended up in me.

The answer, of course, was that I would take pills, to which he said it was not very good to take these pills. Then we went out one night and he told me directly that he wanted to work for a child. I was shocked and I could not respond to this remark. Now he told me that I have to be patient until he finally moves out to live on his own and furnish his apartment, and so on. But we've never had a serious conversation about our relationship and where our relationship is going. At the same time, however, we see each other 1-2 times in two weeks. To some extent I perceive him because he works a lot and his and my vacations differ for the most part. At the same time, however, I wonder if he really has feelings for me or if he tells me these things enough to keep me by his side. According to my close friend, he seriously wanted a relationship from the beginning, but I rejected it prematurely when I said that there was only sex between us. He began to share many things with me - about his childhood, about the relationships in his family, he introduced me to his friends.

He told me that he was very happy that they didn't bother me when I was the only woman around. I don't know what to do from now on. As far as I've known him for years, he avoids serious relationships, or at least I haven't heard of one. Now I'm afraid he won't decide, that I press him. Our relationship is very good at the moment, but it bothers me what he really wants.