Are There Any Feelings

Hi, I'm really confused by his actions, so I decided to write. We are a company of 2 girls and 3 boys. Around February, I learned from the other girl L. that one boy R. had feelings for me. Alas, he is actually gay or he would, I don't know, obviously he doesn't know either. I actually had something for him, but I didn't expect it to be possible for me. And we are very close in principle. He got scared and confessed to me. For a few days everything was wonderful, but he told me that it was too strange for him, he had feelings, but it was strange for him. We didn't talk like that for a month or so. Miraculously, we managed to return to our normal relationship in a few months, as if nothing had happened. I still have something for him, but I haven't told anyone on purpose. She had a boyfriend for 2 months, they separated. We were at sea. And he told L. that he had feelings for me. And he's awful, that he ruined everything a few months ago, that he hurt me, and so on. When I found out, I said to myself that it was nonsense, that it just came to him. And by no means did I accept it as true. However, I notice how he behaves, an attitude he has never had for anyone. Until yesterday, I thought it was nonsense, while he told me while we were at the disco "I like you very much", I asked him to repeat on the pretext that I had not heard. In the evening I slept in them and allowed myself to take my hand and hugged me as we went to bed. I pretend I don't remember what he told me, we are not opening the topic, that is. He's 19, I'm 18. I don't know what to do. Until yesterday, I thought it was nonsense, while he told me, while we were at the disco "I like you very much", I asked him to repeat on the pretext that I had not heard. In the evening I slept in them and allowed myself to take my hand and hugged me as we went to bed. I pretend I don't remember what he told me, we are not opening the topic, that is. He's 19, I'm 18. I don't know what to do. Until yesterday, I thought it was nonsense, while he told me, while we were at the disco "I like you very much", I asked him to repeat on the pretext that I had not heard. In the evening I slept in them and allowed myself to take my hand and hugged me as we went to bed. I pretend I don't remember what he told me, we are not opening the topic, that is. He's 19, I'm 18. I don't know what to do.