Anxiety And Depression

The Story

I do not know where to start. I am 24 years old and a year and a half ago I had my first panic attack. The feeling was nasty, I had a few more mild panic attacks, but that didn't stop me from everyday life. In the summer of 2012, however, the situation began to complicate things for me. I had a heart rate of about 100, anxious, and I got phobias about sitting alone at home and going out. In those moments I started drinking - I felt how alcohol calmed down and how it disguised phobias, I started going out, but with alcohol. I also went to a doctor who prescribed me an antidepressant, but when I saw the leaflet I was scared of the medicine and did not take it. Then I had the opportunity to indulge in alcohol every day, but over time I started drinking a lot for about 6 months I drank very large amounts of alcohol - about a pound or more of hard alcohol or just beer. During this period I felt fit and did my own thing. But later alcohol showed its bad side, my liver was enlarged, I had no appetite and after consultation with another specialist I quickly stopped drinking alcohol at the expense of antidepressant + rivotril and have been taking these drugs for 8 months now, and I can say that alcohol is already history. Because during that time I did not drink a gram of alcohol. But despite the antidepressant and rivotril, I can't say I'm 100 percent fine. I was told that I would recover quickly once I stopped drinking, but that's not the case. Anxiety and at times depression remain - I do not get nasty panic attacks with nasty symptoms such as trembling, muscle heaviness, etc. I want to work, but this diagnosis of anxiety disorder weighs on me, I'm afraid of getting a crisis while working, because then I have nowhere to run. I can say about my life that I have no friends and this weighs on me, nor a girlfriend and at the moment this is not my priority, because to have a girlfriend you have to have money, and I do not work, and I am not sure if I will I can do it. I have to take another exam and finish my bachelor's degree, at times I get nervous and leave studying. Instead of tightening up, these nerves will ruin me. I live in a small town and I have no one to go out with, for the reason I said I have no friends. Because of some things, I don't trust people either.

I have colleagues from the course and only that. And I don't know what it will be like in the future, I am 24 years old and I still think that I am suffering from the most severe mental illness. but this diagnosis of anxiety disorder weighs on me, I'm afraid of getting a crisis while working, because then I have nowhere to run. I can say about my life that I have no friends and this weighs on me, nor a girlfriend and at the moment this is not my priority, because to have a girlfriend you have to have money, and I do not work, and I am not sure if I will I can do it. I have to take another exam and finish my bachelor's degree, at times I get nervous and leave studying. Instead of tightening up, these nerves will ruin me. I live in a small town and I have no one to go out with, for the reason I said I have no friends.

Because of some things, I don't trust people either. I have colleagues from the course and only that. And I don't know what it will be like in the future, I am 24 years old and I still think that I am suffering from the most severe mental illness. but this diagnosis of anxiety disorder weighs on me, I'm afraid of getting a crisis while working because then I have nowhere to run. I can say about my life that I have no friends and this weighs on me, nor a girlfriend and at the moment this is not my priority, because to have a girlfriend you have to have money, and I do not work, and I am not sure if I will I can do it. I have to take another exam and finish my bachelor's degree, at times I get nervous and leave studying. Instead of tightening up, these nerves will ruin me. I live in a small town and I have no one to go out with, for the reason I said I have no friends.

Because of some things, I don't trust people either. I have colleagues from the course and only that. And I don't know what it will be like in the future, I am 24 years old and I still think that I am suffering from the most severe mental illness. I'm afraid of getting a crisis while working because then I have nowhere to run. I can say about my life that I have no friends and this weighs on me, nor a girlfriend and at the moment this is not my priority, because to have a girlfriend you have to have money, and I do not work, and I am not sure if I will I can do it. I have to take another exam and finish my bachelor's degree, at times I get nervous and leave studying. Instead of tightening up, these nerves will ruin me. I live in a small town and I have no one to go out with, for the reason I said I have no friends. Because of some things, I don't trust people either. I have colleagues from the course and only that. And I don't know what it will be like in the future, I am 24 years old and I still think that I am suffering from the most severe mental illness.

I'm afraid of getting a crisis while working because then I have nowhere to run. I can say about my life that I have no friends and this weighs on me, nor a girlfriend and at the moment this is not my priority, because to have a girlfriend you have to have money, and I do not work, and I am not sure if I will I can do it. I have to take another exam and finish my bachelor's degree, at times I get nervous and leave studying. Instead of tightening up, these nerves will ruin me. I live in a small town and I have no one to go out with, for the reason I said I have no friends.

Because of some things, I don't trust people either. I have colleagues from the course and only that. And I don't know what it will be like in the future, I am 24 years old and I still think that I am suffering from the most severe mental illness. that I have no friends and this weighs on me, nor a girlfriend and at the moment this is not my priority, because to have a girlfriend you have to have money, and I do not work, and I am not sure if I will be able to do it. I have to take another exam and finish my bachelor's degree, at times I get nervous and leave studying. Instead of tightening up, these nerves will ruin me. I live in a small town and I have no one to go out with, for the reason I said I have no friends. Because of some things, I don't trust people either. I have colleagues from the course and only that.

And I don't know what it will be like in the future, I am 24 years old and I still think that I am suffering from the most severe mental illness. that I don't have friends and that weighs on me, not even a girlfriend and at the moment this is not my priority, because to have a girlfriend you have to have money, and I don't work, and I'm not sure if I can do it. I have to take another exam and finish my bachelor's degree, at times I get nervous and leave my studies. Instead of tightening up, these nerves will ruin me.

I live in a small town and I have no one to go out with, for the reason I said I have no friends. Because of some things, I don't trust people either. I have colleagues from the course and only that. And I don't know what it will be like in the future, I am 24 years old and I still think that I am suffering from the most severe mental illness. I have to take another exam and finish my bachelor's degree, at times I get nervous and leave studying. Instead of tightening up, these nerves will ruin me. I live in a small town and I have no one to go out with, for the reason I said I have no friends.

Because of some things, I don't trust people either. I have colleagues from the course and only that. And I don't know what it will be like in the future, I am 24 years old and I still think that I am suffering from the most severe mental illness. I have to take another exam and finish my bachelor's degree, at times I get nervous and leave studying. Instead of tightening up, these nerves will ruin me. I live in a small town and I have no one to go out with, for the reason I said I have no friends. Because of some things, I don't trust people either. I have colleagues from the course and only that. And I don't know what it will be like in the future, I am 24 years old and I still think that I am suffering from the most severe mental illness.

Last Updated
July 28, 2020
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