I am 13 years old from Pleven. In short, from a young mother she taught me to solve my problems culturally, without a fight. And obviously that's the reason for my problem. So ... When I got a little older, ie when I entered puberty, my face changed a little, but it didn't get ugly, I don't have pimples or cellulite, because I train. I am 1.75 tall and weigh 57 kg. I change my clothes every day, I bathe regularly, I can say that I am not a bad student, but the boys do not like me, they call me a witch, a monster in front of other people, for example a person who does not know me behaves well with me and then some tell him - everyone calls her the monster and so many people already call me that and I'm so obsessed with this role that others don't like me, that for example I do a haircut in our house, I go out in front of the front door and spoil it ,, because I feel ugly and when I walk down the street I seem to imagine that everyone who passes by me laughs at me and looks at me strangely. I say to myself- What do you care what others think I'm me, there are passengers for every train, but I still can't stand that everyone insults me, I have a girl, I dare not call her a friend, because in this world I know from experience that there are no friends, so with this girlfriend feel different. We talk about boys, but in general it seems like my world is different, but she is otherwise very beautiful and most boys like her very much. A few months ago I tried to cut my veins, but my mother caught me and told me - Are you crazy? But I can't take it anymore, I once cut my hands with scissors and now I have almost imperceptible scars on my upper arm. Every day I hope that when I grow up I will rub their noses and everyone will pay, but until then there is so much time that I just don't know how it will last and I think this time to throw myself from some block or to suffocate, by the way I tried once , but I said to myself- What do you do, if you die your mother will not bear it, your father ... I am not obliged to cause them pain because of my misfortune. I have the feeling that there is some magic on me and I really want a fortune teller to watch me. But I'm afraid she might tell me a lot of bad things about the future and just think about it. Thank you for reading my story, although I have told you 2/4 of all my troubles. I will ask you to encourage me with something, because at the moment I refrain from committing suicide just because I do not want to hurt my loved ones. I feel like I'm going crazy, but life, even though it has given me a great family, obviously punishes me for never betraying a friend and allowing myself to offend only one boy, and that was because I tried to be bad, because that's how I can be life changed, but was it life? - to describe it. :)
1 blondebabynextdoor answered
Well, you know ... when you're good to others, you ALWAYS SUFFER. Obviously, it's time to start being a little more selfish and stick to your own. You can't consider others and listen to people's opinions all your life. You should also walk the streets with confidence and not look like a victim. If someone insults or criticizes you, YOU MUST TELL HIM SO THAT SHE SHOULD BE ASHAMED AND WANT TO SINK INTO THE BOTTOM OF THE EARTH. That's all you need, I'm telling you