And To Love Him Is Too Late ....

One boy and I liked each other very much. He offered me but the first time I told him not because I wanted to remain friends. He offered me again, but I couldn't resist him anymore and we left. I kissed me but the next day I left every night we talked but more than necessary and I had a big bill on the phone so my mother punished me and so we did not see each other for 1 month when I came back I realized that he was dating another girl. I was very upset. We saw each other one day and I broke up with him because I thought he was playing with me. After 2 weeks I went out and we agreed that we would stay, I admitted to him that I would love him forever. After another week I had written to him on impulse various nonsense because one day he did not look at me and at school he behaved very strangely. One day he and a friend of mine killed me on the day of the affair. Then we went to them to leave their things then we went to us and spent the whole day until 20.30 in us doy kept holding me for the cancer it was the greatest day of my life we ​​talked and the next day we went out but he was not the best my pleasant day. He wanted me to tell him what we were going to do, whether we would get up or not or leave, but I told him that we would stay friends for now. He says he's crazy but there are things in her that annoy him and I don't know. Then he had to leave because his grandmother was sick and he didn't have anyone to take care of her ... And I don't know why I feel so bad ... Help me, I love him and he but he loves the other girl and only I suck, they are happy and I, the fool, am sure that I will wait for him forever and I will never forget my first love. He is everything to me ...,. Tell me what to do what ???