An Intricate Story

Hi, What I'm going to share may be wrong, but this is my life. I got married about a year ago. Everything was going well, my husband was behaving wonderfully. I felt good until one day he came home beaten. It turned out that he got involved with someone's boyfriend and ate paint. I couldn't believe it. He was good, considerate, honest. I couldn't imagine that he had cheated on me. But I told myself I would forgive him. He has changed since then. He became secretive and a little strange. He would come home when I least expected it, and he would come out suddenly. One night I got tired of waiting for him to come home and I went out with friends. That night I met a man who turned everything in my life upside down. At first we saw each other on walks, coffee, I helped him several times in his problems. Gradually I began to feel something strange about him. To this day, I can't determine what it is. We started a hidden relationship. Rather purely sexual. I know I'm committed, but I can't break up. I feel that he gives me the peace and sex that I have been missing for a long time. If I tell my husband I want a divorce, he will get angry and never agree to a good one. If I tell him I'm cheating on him, I'm afraid of what he'll do. There is no more love and security in my marriage, only secrets and tension, and I want to be with the other, who drinks every part of me only with words and lips. that I am cheating on him, I am afraid of what he will do. There is no more love and security in my marriage, only secrets and tension, and I want to be with the other, who drinks every part of me only with words and lips. that I am cheating on him, I am afraid of what he will do. There is no more love and security in my marriage, only secrets and tension, and I want to be with the other, who drinks every part of me only with words and lips.