An Incorrigible Gambler

The Story

Hello, I am a 20-year-old boy from a good family, you could say that I have never been deprived of anything. For as long as I can remember, even in my memories of kindergarten and primary school, I will have been a mischief-maker and a little girl (black sheep). At the age of 15, I was in a children's pedagogical room because of a beating. I turned 16 and started going out in the wrong environment and smoking marijuana. The "friends" from the neighborhood were selling as if they were doing it for the sport and I said to myself that I could too (then ours gave me BGN 5-10 a day) and that might also have been a factor. I used to drive it until I was 18 and I didn't start going to the casino, I didn't regret anything like that. and 10 minutes ... I get up, stand up, continue .. But I've already fallen 100 times, not on my ass, but straight on my eyes, I don't have the strength to stand up anymore, I have no desire for anything, I get depressed for 2-3 days. After a week I forget what happened to me and I push myself again, then all I have to do is try to escape a little from this problem that I have caused myself. This vicious circle continues to this day, even though I was abroad for 6 months to work in an attempt to break free from this vice. I came back and lost everything, I didn't even get a book, and with this money I had calculated to buy a car .. In general, I don't know what I'm addicted to - gambling in general (roulette, poker), the grass or even seriously that it is possible that I am addicted to this depressive feeling that I feel sick, you know, even before I go and play the money, I know what will happen (deja vu) and that does not stop me .... My parents know that I gamble and even that I smoke (I have finally stopped selling). I have been king of us, I have bet, my relationship with ours is very bad and completely justified, I have not stopped disappointing them, my father has almost given up on me. At the moment I am unemployed, I can't even go out without ambitions, my self-confidence is crushed and the worst thing is that I ruined myself and I don't even know if it's too late to get on the right path

Last Updated
August 23, 2020
Author:
fuckhardfrank

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