Hello :) A girl of about 20, who is traveling at breakneck speed to depression. The problem, if I may call it that at all, is an ex. It was just a dunk for a while, no feelings, no unnecessary dramas, with disgusting exes behind me who are still trying to ruin me. Maybe it was out of female malice that we started our relationship, at least me. Contrary to them, to prove to them that this asshole has forgotten them and does not care about them, the "story" began. It was good, I will not blame my soul, entertainment, parties, intimacy of various kinds. And he seemed to fall in love. And I was just having fun. I didn't care enough, I gave him freedom, but I became attached. It's time for everything to end, but we don't know why we didn't finish it. He was my lifeline, he was there when not everything in my life was flourishing. It helped me get up, then he himself drove me into the ground. Just when I started wanting something more, his ex started looking for me, explaining how he never gave up on her, didn't forget her, how they were together behind my back. Not that I trusted her, but he wouldn't let me not. Then I made the point, I got cold, I felt short-term feelings for someone else, I thought I had continued. For several months I didn't even think of everything. Until a few months ago. I saw him with another and something inside me broke. Female malice again, I guess. Not that I wanted it, but I didn't want it to be with anyone else. Crazy, huh Still, I got what I wanted - a short dive with him. He obviously showed that he had feelings, and I don't know what I want at all. I'm pulling at the moment, I want him to be happy, I can't make him like that. And yet I feel like I'm failing, even without wanting to, his every experience with someone else. What the hell should I do? !! I feel like the biggest egoist on the planet. I don't deserve love, I can't give love. I'm just ruining his life right now. I'm tired of being told I'm one in a million and I can't stop and show some love.
You are a touching individual.
And why are you "one in a million"?
I didn't expect answers at all, but these are a little too much for me. Judge me, I deserve it. Ever since I was a child, I dreamed of a romance like in the movies, my family proved that there is no love by ruining the one I believed in. I believed that everything was just a game, love was just a script. The boy is not bad, he had a thrill for a while, but I did not allow myself to feel anything so as not to be hurt in the end. I played, quite a lot. You have no idea how guilty I feel about everything. I have told him more than once that nothing will happen between us, that he will find his happiness in someone else's face. I didn't look for him at all for several months, I realized that there was a connection and I didn't look for him. Our paths intertwined again, he did everything himself, and I got my short-term stay, as I already mentioned. Then I realized that he hadn't actually broken up with the other. I looked for him, to make him leave me, to leave my friends (still looking for them to ask them about me, asking them to ask me things about him, if there is a chance for something). There were explanations of how he would drop everything just to be with me. I didn't want him, I wanted him to be with them. I'm not blaming him for anything though, I'm guilty of allowing myself to reappear and show interest. But, for God's sake, a 'touching individual'? !! People make mistakes, families break up, and you start judging a girl who has just entered life ... I'm sorry, okay. I don't want understanding, but you don't have to be so mean. And for that 'one in a million', I went out with a few people after him in an attempt to forget him. In the end, I tried to explain to them how I wasn't ready for a blah-blah relationship. In return, I received this and how much I deserve. Apparently live doesn't make such a bad impression, I know. Still, I made a lot of mistakes with him and I can't forgive him. If I could turn back time, I wouldn't even start dating him, but alas. If you're going to explain to me how much fighting I need, you better save it, I'm punishing myself enough.
Hey boy, it's not your female malice, nor is it crazy. Abe ... it's a little crazy, to be honest ... but still ... Really, what can we do about it with our own ego, huh? Maybe you just don't like to need help, to be in the position of an addict? There are no two opinions on the issue - no one is happy to be in such a position, to rely on helping them in difficult situations. So if HE did exactly that to you, helped you to your feet ... maybe he doesn't take you out? Maybe you wanted to return the status quo - through YOU to be the one who lends a hand and helps? Maybe that's why you wish you had seen him go alone, lonely and unhappy, without anyone by his side ...? Need reassurance and support? Or maybe your ego is annoyed to see that it didn't really happen, have you seen him with another? And if he started with her, then you are not "one in a million" as you have been told so many times? You killed him enough to prove to yourself that there really is something "special" in you. The above paragraph consists entirely of assumptions and conjectures, inter alia. I'm neither a psychologist nor do I know you. But if he has to be absolutely honest with you, boy, I think you have inferiority complexes. Either that's it, or you still don't understand what it means to "love." Whether you can or cannot love, we are not the ones who can tell you, but personally I think that only hopeless psychopaths are not capable of love. So in this regard ... why do you think you can't make him happy? as they have told you so many times? You killed him enough to prove to yourself that there really is something "special" in you. The above paragraph consists entirely of assumptions and conjectures, inter alia. I'm neither a psychologist nor do I know you. But if he has to be absolutely honest with you, boy, I think you have inferiority complexes. Either that's it, or you still don't understand what it means to "love." Whether you can or cannot love, we are not the ones who can tell you, but personally I think that only hopeless psychopaths are not capable of love. So in this regard ... why do you think you can't make him happy? as they have told you so many times? You killed him enough to prove to yourself that there really is something "special" in you. The above paragraph consists entirely of assumptions and conjectures, inter alia. I'm neither a psychologist nor do I know you. But if he has to be absolutely honest with you, boy, I think you have inferiority complexes. Either that's it, or you still don't understand what it means to "love." Whether you can or cannot love, we are not the ones who can tell you, but personally I think that only hopeless psychopaths are not capable of love. So in this regard ... why do you think you can't make him happy? I'm neither a psychologist nor do I know you. But if he has to be absolutely honest with you, boy, I think you have inferiority complexes. Either that's it, or you still don't understand what it means to "love." Whether you can or cannot love, we are not the ones who can tell you, but personally I think that only hopeless psychopaths are not capable of love. So in this regard ... why do you think you can't make him happy? I'm neither a psychologist nor do I know you. But if he has to be absolutely honest with you, boy, I think you have inferiority complexes. Either that's it, or you still don't understand what it means to "love." Whether you can or cannot love, we are not the ones who can tell you, but personally I think that only hopeless psychopaths are not capable of love. So in this regard ... why do you think you can't make him happy?
God protect us from people like you, girl. You have time to change, you are still young. Do something about it! 1017
Rather, you sound like a person with mental problems / addictions / or quite frivolous behavior, not to mention something specific. You seem to have imagined something.
So, I asked why you are "one in a million", because I assumed that it was about your vision, because from what was written it is not clear that you have any valuable qualities, human. And to have a vision - is not small. IT'S REALLY A BLESSING! ;) Everyone is talking about how they will get a "decent" wife, but we know that the beautiful has an advantage, life has proven it. I have nothing to add - I have nothing to do with the topic.
Apparently I've really messed up a hell of a lot in this case. It is a pity that I realize this in the last days after everything happened. And even more unfortunate that after I literally used it, I started to feel something. Yes, I don't know what love is, I haven't loved. I can't tell my mother that I love her. Thanks, yes. Attachment too. But what love is is not clear to me. Your attacks came to me a little more. I realize it wasn't right, but what now, to commit suicide because people like me don't have to live? !! Maybe it's really all because of complexes to prove to myself that I'm not unwanted. Probably that's why I'm so sick now, since he wanted to give me the world, and I didn't want to accept any of it, he replaced me so quickly and ordered the same to another. It is clear to me that I am not irreplaceable. But it's hard and it hurts. And some friendly advice would be a much better option. And if there is to be a fight, let it be. I believe that everything in this life happens for a reason, it just remains to find its own.
Number 8 she may have really mental disorders, I see it in writing and it is clear from 100 kilometers that it is so She needs a man who is like her and not to complain I apologize for the tone, I am a man and I know how there are things like the author I do not regret at all.
You post a topic with chatterboxes and wonder why someone doesn't think like you. And you don't even know what to think. People do all kinds of things in their youth - they have no experience, they want to make a living, they think that they deserve all kinds of beauties, etc. That even in old age they cannot fix the directions of the world. No one is judging you here, at least because your life is not affected in any way. Be honest with people, find out who you are and what you are fighting for and it will enlighten you a little, including the one in question.
Calm down, you're not one in a million. There are millions like you nowadays ... And the others are trying to catch up with you, because you are their idol for the super cool chick. But I will open you, who has gone after people like you and allows them to play with him, he just deserves it ...
You mixed them up nicely, but no one was killed, were you? And a confessed sin is half a sin. Once you give yourself a change of things, this is the first step. Calm down, you can't turn back time. Better find a good psychologist to help you with the traumas of the past. And start doing good. Good luck.
But you are one in a million - such a vicious parasite is rare. At least if it had stuck to number 10, you were a related product.
17th - does not know what "sarcasm" is.
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If you want him to be happy, leave him, just remove him from your life from the beginning, it is normally difficult for you, but in this way you will give yourself time and you will pass.