Amfeti ......

   If you don't change your friends, it won't happen. I used to be a thief, I smoked weed regularly and I took snot, and my bad friends had a huge impact. Since I dumped them, I'm 1000 times better. I don't even smoke cigarettes anymore and I'm not afraid to walk the streets so that the police don't stop. They don't seem to be your friends. If you are near the abyss (friends), you can't help but fall into it. You have to wonder if you like life? If you don't have to look for a change. You don't have to sit at home long. Find a sport to do because when you expend energy you feel good and do not think about nonsense. It is good to visit a church and confess.

   It is not impossible to give up, but it will not be easy, you need a lot of will! I regularly smoked weed for 4-5 years, sometimes 6-7 grams from morning to evening, I even got there for a day and from there I started with amphetamines because when I smoked 4-5 cigarettes and I lost a hell of a lot of sleep. Hey weave 3-4 years I started when I was 7th grade grass now I'm 20 and I'm clean. Try to reduce the drugs first and not stop once because you will not succeed, I'm sure, reduce them gradually, for example, if you take 15 lines a day, reduce one or two a day, the same with the grass and other shit , for me this method worked and I have been clean for a year and a half now, I smoke mara every two months, even less often. And the fact that you say that there was no point in looking for a job and a girlfriend, because they all thought you were screaming, kill him, It's also more or less the same for me, half the city remembered me badly, but when they see the change in me, they change their initial opinion, it happens over time, and as I said, I'm already clean, I'm even a student. I wish you good luck, I hope you get out of this mess soon! :)

   I went through the same thing and stopped them! So ... The problem is that you are used to this way of life and people and you think that you are very interesting living such a life and in fact you are at the bottom, the bottom. As you write here, I hope you are really looking for change. To change your life you need absolute catharsis. You need to change everything and start getting used to the new life and way of thinking. First you change the environment, you leave your "friends", the city even, you start training, martial arts and fitness, you start eating healthy. You start going to a psychologist to monitor your development. You do absolutely all the tests to check the overall condition of the body. Like you, I got drunk and now I haven't taken anything for 7 years. In the beginning it was hell for the first year, but I survived and now I have forgotten about everything. If you are a strong-willed person, you will succeed, but if you do not, the circle of your suffering will become even greater. It's all a brain trick, will and perseverance to build new habits. There is an audio book "From Goal to Reality" on YouTube. Listen to her.

   You drop your friends immediately and try some spiritual teaching, such as that of Peter Deunov. I had an acquaintance who was very bad-drugs, beatings, on the verge of death, and it helped him.

   I am 17 years old, I have been smoking cigarettes since I was 15 and I stopped them like that, I ride a bike every day after school, go to the indoor pool, train in the gym. Abe, I already enjoy my life from everywhere :) I strongly hope that it will happen to you, to stop using drugs because this is a nasty way of life, remember that if there is drugs in a company, you do not communicate with their personalities and namely with their devils and demons :)

   Don't start other drugs again! Last November, a wonderful singer passed away, not because he wanted to or knew, but because he was given xanax with fentanyl without him even knowing ... Lil Peep is called I don't know if you know ... try to reduce their use very slowly until you finally stop, don't lose hope

   I go with a drug addict, I loved him even though he was "screaming", but I had only one requirement - to stop taking drugs. He kept shaking and cheating on me when he got drunk. I forgave him countless times, but in the end it was over. If you do not hold hands, no one will look at you with a good eye. No matter what your story is, people look at the present and you have a chance for a girl to fall in love with you, to find a normal job and for people to respect you again. But I see you're just whining. Only labor cures drugs. If you dedicate yourself to something - to plant a forest, to build a house, to create a machine or whatever you like there, you will fall asleep to have the strength to continue your work the next day. Only laziness leads to the abyss of drugs, and all other factors are only ancillary.

   If you can find benzo with the help of the Internet (Rivotril, diazepam, etc.) you will be able to stop the amphetamines once, but alternate one week of benzo and then one week of alcohol so as not to become addicted. In the meantime, you start taking multivitamins, magnesium separately, fish oil, vitamin d3 and ginkgo biloba (you have no idea how well these things work) to restore your body. If you know English look in the Redit forum, there are tons of information on the subject. If you plan to take my advice seriously, you MUST know what all these substances do, how they are used and how they combine because I don't know if you should stop amphetamine gradually or once you take them, it's even best to talk about it. with a doctor, but keep in mind that what I tell you can change your life in a month! Good luck!

   Unlike most other drugs, amphetamines are addictive and the desire for them is only in the head. 1 month locked up at home with a lot of food, water, fruit, chocolates, movies, a lot of sleep, and if I went out - in quiet places and alone! So I stopped this shit, which I took for 3 years. For the first 2 weeks I felt like a rag, I couldn't move anywhere if I didn't breathe and over time I realized that everything was in my head. I haven't completely changed the company, there are still a lot of people around me, but they don't impress me at all ... who, on God, emphasize white (sweaty, pimpled, filmed, cycled ...) amphetamines, there are none around me. - A girl of 18

   And where do you have to write this? Even if you have, there is no salvation, sorry. One of our class (repeats sixth), last year, in the last school had no money to buy, gnawed the sleeves of clothes and sent him to the hospital. Although your story seems surreal to me. You should have sold the equipment now.