Am I Underestimating Myself Too Much?

The Story

I'm in my early 20s. So I mean, he may have sounded extremely self-critical, but he is. First of all, I'm not ugly, but there are so many other things in me that I can't stand, for example, nasty acne that can't get rid of it. It's like you're a leper. The other is that to tall and thin. Third is that I can't eat what I want, such as chocolate or something else, because it interferes with my skin. I want to gain weight, but with that dull skin it doesn't work, and according to the doctors I should have been on a diet. What do they really want skin and bones to become? I want to go to the sea, but with these pimples they will look at me and it would be better not to go. In addition to my native Bulgarian, I know three other languages ​​that are not perfect - English, Russian and Japanese. And I try to find a job abroad, but it doesn't work out and I can't do anything. I go out, but I don't like the same people in the same place. I have the feeling that even if I stay where I am for 40 years, nothing will happen. I have lost interest in everything, especially women. I gave up that I would find, and for what? Would they stare at someone like me?

Hardly. I don't like what's left for them to like me. Honestly, if I were a woman, I wouldn't look at this cartoon I am at the moment. I have a feeling that whatever I do, I'll blow up. My sister and I are complete opposites. She finished Vince with 6+ and I interrupted mine. He has two children and he only went with cool guys, and nothing binds me. Everyone loves her, they think she's cool, and I'm crazy. He works and receives a salary of BGN 2,000 without the bonuses, and I have yellow pennies. He recently bought a car for 30 vouchers and some boots for 800 leva from a mall in Varna. He also brags to me that he ate shrimp in a fancy restaurant. She was lucky when our people were alive to support her and take everything from her. It didn't work out for me because they died 8 years ago and the whole crook came to me. It's like someone cursed me.

Last Updated
August 26, 2020
Author:
miss_lunatic

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