I don't know what kind of person I am, but something is happening to me that I can't explain. Obviously there is something in me that repulses people and I can't stand such an attitude. I don't know how to explain it to you exactly so that you can fully understand me, but I will try to be in some chronological order to introduce you to my life in general. Ever since I was little I was not one of those sculpted girls who can have absolutely any man, but I was not fat, I trained hard. Still, there were some guys who insulted me for being ugly and not knowing what. To clarify that I do not have pimples, defects, oily hair, I dress normally ... but nevertheless in 8th grade I still met the boy, with whom we later became boyfriends. He was older than me, then he moved to the big city. And there he knew a lot of really exceptional girls, but still I felt the attention of how much she liked me, which made me feel a bit like a woman. In 11th grade we broke up with him (it was my fault) and I have to admit I had some male attention, I had another boyfriend after that, but I will not forget one moment, we flipped through my old photos and he said that looking at them, he understood why then he was not staring at me. Yes, I wasn't wearing short skirts and "lightly" dressed, but I was a normal girl ... I graduated, I went to university and somehow again I wasn't very close with the boys, and I'm so super close with a few girls. Now that I'm older and older, I see that when I say something, they talk to me, but somehow they don't look at me like "hey, this is a nice girl, a colleague, we can have a coffee sometime" ... or something like that. In fact, I'm not stupid, I take an active part in all the lectures, I'm smart, I understand my job (I've been working for a year), I understand the material, I always develop my projects as excellent ... I met some guys from the neighborhood next to the dogs. I tried to talk to them, to go out sometime or something ... but unfortunately they obviously don't like me and they don't even want that. As I said, I did not stop training. I go to the spa, aerobics, various cosmetic procedures as well. In the gyms I pretend to meet some guys, and then somehow they suddenly stop communicating with me ... I don't know what I'm pushing them away with. Tonight I went for a walk with a friend and I felt terrible. Acquaintances did not want to say "hello" to me .. others looked at me strangely. They even laughed behind our backs. I don't know what's wrong with me, believe me. To know that I'm fat, that I dress funny, that I have defects, that I'm stupid ... also I have never gotten into an argument anywhere before. Please tell me what's wrong with me :( The most interesting thing is that my friends have always been the ones who speak directly, if they don't like something, they will tell each other. They have told me many times when something didn't work out for me. well or etc .. many times I have been told that I look really good, that something looks sexy to me, even though I have a nice and tight d * pe ... I feel bad and rejected by society.
1 manu_sexygirl answered
I think you take it very deep. I am a man of 32 years. already, but at 19-20. I was like you no attention from women nothing. At one point I wondered what was going on. I am 185 cm tall blond, I trained swimming and athletics and I wondered what was happening. All friends had girlfriends I didn't. And I emphasize I was not congested, I talked to them, they came out with me everything exactly and in the end I heard NO everywhere. I was so upset that I told myself to leave the neighborhood and the city for a while. Since I was a swimmer, I took a lifeguard course and went to the beach in Nessebar. In the beginning I was blown away and even if they looked at me I thought, it is pointless to have coffee again haho hehe and in the end I did nothing and nothing at all for about two weeks. In the third week, a whole group of girls came to my post from somewhere, and there was a chick so insistent and impudent that she almost forced me to go out. After we went out she was so happy that she told me the next day how much her friends were jealous, etc., that I was a super cool guy, etc .. This automatically boosted my self-esteem and after it all season I don't want to tell you what women I've been with, the kind I've never even dreamed of. When I returned home at the end of the season, my self-esteem was pounding in the attic and was clearly visible everywhere. I can tell you that everyone who avoided me was brutally pressured by me and who liked me, I slept with them once and made a joke of them, that was my revenge. I tell you all this to tell you a custom and respect yourself in the first place, if you do it for yourself, then others will notice it in your character, believe me and you will not need to talk to them at all. After my rescue, I have been reading everything through women's eyes for several seasons and I know every moment what a woman thinks about me and I know how to react if it is good or bad, it doesn't matter if she is on the beach, in the gym or on the road. I realized after my experience at sea that I really had nothing but my low self-esteem and attempts to have a girlfriend were seen as desperate attempts in the eyes of women as a drowning man for a straw, this was what repelled them, but when I turned the coin things radically changed in my favor. It's the same with men, your attempts to talk to a man, especially as you mentioned, this with the dogs is a terrible own goal for you, as I explained to you above why this happens. Even if someone pays attention to you after you talk about it in your head, it will be the perfect "easy prey for sex" and then you will be beaten by a jester, which will surely hurt you even more. You have nothing to understand, it's just that your tactics are wrong. Greetings and head up.