Hi, I'm a 19-year-old girl. I apologize if the question is stupid, I searched a lot on the topic and did not find an answer.
Well, I haven't had sex, I recently had a boyfriend and one night we got hot, he started sticking his finger in ... me. It hurt a lot, but I put it on. The next day I felt a slight pain underneath, when I walk, I sit down .. 2 days passed and we repeated the incident, he fixed me with a finger (he inserted it all over), he hurt me a lot again .. 4 times he fixed me with a finger, the last time not I felt pain, only pleasure. I tried it myself these days, I was self-satisfied and for the first time I put in a bottle of mascara without a problem (before I couldn't even 1 finger). My question is does this mean that he tore my hymen (there was no blood), am I still a virgin, or am I just ... open? Does it mean that when we really do it and it penetrates me, it won't hurt so much ...? Given that I have not had sex with the penetration of a penis into me (I am very afraid of pain and for that, we have not done it yet).
Excuse me if my questions are a little silly, but I have no experience and will be happy to comment. :)