Am I Right In My Decision?

The Story

Hello, (smile) I need help, opinion, I'm afraid that my overconfidence will prevent me from making the right judgment. I am 34 years old. I have been in a relationship with a wonderful woman for 5 years. We have been living together since 3. There have been no shortage of connections in my life, on the contrary I am in love, I look for harmony and I always find it. I think the problem of people who can't find their halves is their laziness. They just don't look as they should. I believe that people change, even if at some point (maybe years) you are in perfect harmony with all the magic and wonders, there comes a time when the woman or man next to you seems to lose her sense of important signals. Change is a great thing, but it is dangerous if you do not follow. Sooner or later, a difference builds up and you leave the little things, namely the ones that made you happy and special for someone, to leave. Because it still happens, I take great care of myself to maintain everything that the woman next to me loves and enjoys, as well as to follow the new. Alas, the film is repeated. I have gathered and fallen in love with you, because of what you are, because of what you give me as a presence and feeling, and not because of what you will become or what you will lie about being. I am in love with the light search for touch, the looking look when you are among many people and you have not felt the presence for a long time, not that I am a given to you because you have felt that you are loved. My problem is the following. My friend makes me very happy, she is a wonderful person. But she went out with someone else. Hmm sounds damn dumb. It was all too late. Our life is very dynamic. As in the movies, variety as much as you want new people and movement as much as you want, contacts with a lot of people every day. She was the first, which has changed nothing in its devotion to me constant from the beginning. I carry her in my arms. Months ago I asked her what she dreamed of, I did it by the way while we were with company, I watched her, it was a natural answer immediately "child". I didn't say anything, but I had the knowledge of the power that I can make her wishes come true. It didn't take long and I assessed the situation, I told you that I try to make the people around me happy, this is the way to evaluate myself, my personal happiness. We started. Her slight disappointment made me hellishly every month, I felt that she wanted it and was waiting for it to happen. I imagined a super mother. A child with a lot of love. And two days ago. Phrase! At the beginning of our relationship there were moments of disagreement, especially in terms of whether it is normal to flirt with men, provided that you have already found what you are looking for. Do it a few more times, she was warned, as if she had stopped. A woman must keep her husband's honor, that's what a man does. So we adjusted. He used to take pleasure in the fact that anyone could go crazy as if he had been beaten. He was very jealous of me, I respected him, a strong side effect of love, he is treated with confidence, I built it. I have friends and many acquaintances in the city called me to see her with another in a restaurant. He was an acquaintance of mine, I told him he was wrong. Well, yes, but my car is easily recognizable, someone else told me that he saw me somewhere ....... and from there all these women were not late, sharks where they just look are perspectives. I quote one of them "I didn't see you only a woman that night ..." and she looks me in the eyes as I will bleed. I was not in town then. I asked for an explanation. Lied to me. I also said that he knew that I could check everything so that he would not humiliate me to tell me. No. They got me the cameras of the evening ... horror ... it was. They didn't push, they didn't touch, but they spent the whole evening together talking in ear ... abe pain. They may be in the beginning. Now I have a threat of suicide .... snot and inadequate explanations, a lot of pain and terrible inertia of wonderful love and joy. The question is ....... Should I use the inertia and go through this ..... I'm so dude that I will not suffer so much dignity, and I'm terribly (I was) happy with it. I kissed her while she slept. When it moves around me, it's as if someone caresses me right in the heart. Or to do as my heart tells me that this will always happen again, sooner or later. And the same with a child ? She is used to being the object of men's attention. God, we were making children ...... I should have made my dreams come true at this moment. What does he give her ?? And even worse. I studied it ... she has hardly touched him, the boy of the people you forget you met is a complete zero. He seems to be gay (I wish .. giggles) She paid his bill. I broke up with her, it hurts a lot, I don't know why she did it, I know she is a wonderful person, but a person ...... I would like her as a friend .... she is charismatic. Every company loves her instantly. I removed from myself the most important part - my soul (half was hers). I made her cry with joy ... I have no explanation. But you still seem to be your wife K ...... YOU. Since you women think that love is up to date and cannot be like in the beginning, which is complete nonsense, then I will look for it and let me have only the beginning (smile). I don't know why he did it, I know he is a wonderful person, but a person ...... I would like her as a friend .... she is charismatic. Every company loves her instantly. I removed from myself the most important part - my soul (half was hers). I made her cry with joy ... I have no explanation. But you still seem to be your wife K ...... YOU. Since you women think that love is up to date and cannot be like in the beginning, which is complete nonsense, then I will look for it and let me have only the beginning (smile). I don't know why he did it, I know he is a wonderful person, but a person ...... I would like her as a friend .... she is charismatic. Every company loves her instantly. I removed from myself the most important part - my soul (half was hers). I made her cry with joy ... I have no explanation. But you still seem to be your wife K ...... YOU. Since you women think that love is up to date and cannot be like in the beginning, which is complete nonsense, then I will look for it and let me have only the beginning (smile).

Last Updated
October 08, 2020
Author:
coachcorliss

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