Am I A Mockery?

Hello! I am a girl with cerebral palsy (third phase, mild diagnosis)! Tonight I am very sad to share here to seek relief and I will be very glad to hear your opinion. Last year I met a boy and we immediately exchanged Facebook and Instagram. He is older than me, he works as a police officer, a student majoring in Electronics. I deal with online sales, I am a student majoring in Informatics. We wrote to each other for a long time and decided to go out. He chose us to go to a hotel and have a drink. Then he got me drunk and immediately started undressing me for sex. The next day he tells me that he doesn't mind my illness and wants us to be boyfriends. I agreed! We started dating more often, we traveled together more often everywhere and everything was great. However, it gradually started to make me change and took me on a lever to train, because he wants me to get rid of my disease completely so that he doesn't suffer. I was very sick! I didn't tell him anything. Then he started insulting me that I had chest hair and called me to remove it. I didn't tell him anything again. It made me even worse!

There were many more such insults, but I was silent for 4 months. He constantly scolds me and calls me to do something for him, to take care of him and so on. And I told him well and I will change. I don't have a habit of taking care of someone, but I tried for him. One morning I get up early and go buy sandwiches for myself and him. I bought them, brought them, he ate them and then he told me that I did not buy the sandwiches with love. I was very angry and did not tell him anything. Every afternoon I like to relax and watch TV or listen to music. He really hates to rest in the afternoon. We do not live together, and I went to him for 24 hours. There is something I can't understand, I know his father and stepmother, but he doesn't want to introduce me to his mother. He only says bad things about his mother and tells me that she is crazy and just lies around all day like me. I don't know if she's crazy, but why she doesn't want to introduce me to her. What is the reason? His father is an alcoholic, his mother I don't know what he is, his cousins ​​are also alcoholics, his father beat his brother, his sister married a bandit ... I was very disappointed with his failed people! Then I decided to live in Sofia and be further away from his failed people. Then there were terrible scandals about Sofia and in the end I decided to leave without him. We did not have a relationship for 1 year, he offered me to try for a baby. I got really sick. This time I couldn't keep quiet and told him there would be no baby and we finally broke up. Two weeks passed, I looked for him again, and finally he told me that if I wanted to be with him, I had to be a housekeeper, a cook, a cleaner, and so on. He had made a list and so I shouted at him, told him what this nonsense was, what these plans were ...

And he called me if you had no plans, you had nothing to do with me. Horror! For me, plans sometimes lead to disappointment, so I don't make plans. The only thing I wanted from him was to love each other and accept ourselves as we are. Tell me where I went wrong? Am I being mocked? Does he have any idea how people in love live? Without one expecting anything from the other. And he calls me if you have no plans, you have nothing to do with me. Horror! For me, plans sometimes lead to disappointment, so I don't make plans. The only thing I wanted from him was to love each other and accept ourselves as we are.

Tell me where I went wrong? Am I being mocked? Does he have any idea how people in love live? Without one expecting anything from the other. And he calls me if you have no plans, you have nothing to do with me. Horror! For me, plans sometimes lead to disappointment, so I don't make plans. The only thing I wanted from him was to love each other and accept ourselves as we are. Tell me where I went wrong? Am I being mocked? Does he have any idea how people in love live? Without one expecting anything from the other.