Alcohol

10 minutes. That's what alcohol says, that's what he whispers from the bottle, "I give you 10 minutes of happiness." And you believe him, you give in, and here you are, you know you're there, but you don't really know anything. It fills your veins and reaches your heart. And here that soon you no longer feel or feel anything. And soon it reaches your brain, fills it and conquers it. You no longer react and you don't think, you don't see. You can only be there. And here you are already under his control, unable to stop him. I like this in alcohol, those 10 minutes, but for me they turn into 30. And sometimes it's too much time, and I can't stop it. I can't stop. But I need that, to forget, not to think, then I'll go home again, I'll be fine again, I'll be sad again. And I don't like that. But do I have a choice? And now I'm sad again. I can't be wrong, not myself. I know I know, that I am not whole and that I am missing something. I am incomplete, unnecessary, I am not whole, I am not. And I don't know how that will change.

But I need to change and I will wait, I promise. But the hours turn into days, the days into weeks, and the weeks into months, and I'm still waiting. How long will he wait? Is it a lot? Should I expect anything at all… or is it not worth the wait. Is there anything to wait for? I do not know. But I know that in those 10 minutes, I don't care if I know or not. Then I don't wait. That's why I love him. But I'm sorry, really, I'm sorry I'm overdoing it and I expect these 10 minutes to be so much fun for others. I'm sorry, but these are my 10 minutes I've been waiting for. And… and .. and I keep waiting…. But the hours turn into days, the days into weeks, and the weeks into months, and I'm still waiting. How long will he wait? Is it a lot? Should I expect anything at all… or is it not worth the wait. Is there anything to wait for? I do not know. But I know that in those 10 minutes, I don't care if I know or not. Then I don't wait. That's why I love him. But I'm sorry, really, I'm sorry I'm overdoing it and I expect these 10 minutes to be so much fun for others. I'm sorry, but these are my 10 minutes I've been waiting for. And… and .. and I keep waiting….

But the hours turn into days, the days into weeks, and the weeks into months, and I'm still waiting. How long will he wait? Is it a lot? Should I expect anything at all… or is it not worth the wait. Is there anything to wait for? I do not know. But I know that in those 10 minutes, I don't care if I know or not. Then I don't wait. That's why I love him. But I'm sorry, really, I'm sorry I'm overdoing it and I expect these 10 minutes to be so much fun for others. I'm sorry, but these are my 10 minutes I've been waiting for. And… and .. and I keep waiting…. that I go too far and expect that these 10 minutes will be as much fun for others. I'm sorry, but these are my 10 minutes I've been waiting for. And… and .. and I keep waiting…. that I go too far and expect that these 10 minutes will be as much fun for others. I'm sorry, but these are my 10 minutes I've been waiting for. And… and .. and I keep waiting….