About The Depression And Failure I'm Slowly Moving Towards

   Young man, I fully understand you and I sincerely sympathize with you! You make a big mistake by going to a psychiatrist for help, you have realized that the situation is getting worse instead of getting better. And I made that mistake, and after my visit to a psychiatrist I became a rag. They prescribe drugs so strong that they are crushed. Doctors have told you that winter provokes depression, and did they explain why? Depression strikes us when the hormones of happiness become deficient in our body, especially the hormone Serotonin. Sunlight catalyzes the production of this hormone, so it becomes insufficient in winter because we do not stay in the sun. I'll be brief, go to a neurologist (not a psychiatrist) and ask him if you can use the mild antidepressant Dianxit. It is known as the pink pill of happiness,

   Accept that everyone has a destiny and do not blame yourself. I am your age and I have experienced great failures both financially and as a family, but I am moving forward. It is a mistake to isolate yourself and have no friends, find people with common interests, diversify your daily life.

   I'm 26 and I've been like that for as long as I can remember. I haven't sought help and I'm trying to live with it. I also try as much as possible not to affect my work, but my personal life is a corpse. I attribute it to my character, not so much to some mental problem. At least you can try, like me, to get rid of the habit of opening and closing doors and pushing buttons 100 times. It happens when you force yourself, it is not impossible and then you get used to it. For thinking about something 100 times in its 100 different variants, I still have it and it also has pros and cons. The downsides are extra nerves for everything, but the plus is that you almost always know the end result and can prepare.

   I answer only for the purpose of providing moral support, although I do not know if I can. I have been in the same condition for six years. I've been very ill for a year. I don't keep in touch with people, I work much less. I sleep badly, I drink a lot. During this time I realized that antidepressants are not a way out, but help to find a way out of the situation. For me, the condition also appeared for no reason. I had a job that I loved (I'm still the same), I traveled, I had a serious relationship (I still have), I'm not bad financially either. But it doesn't ask. Personally, I decided it was best to unravel the problem to the max and see exactly where it comes from. I discovered it for myself two weeks ago. My supposed reasons are extremely inadequate. I guess yours, too. But I think that for these conditions all the reasons are extremely inadequate. My suggestion and advice to you is to find out the reason for this, it took me a whole year. But I still make progress. I feel an idea better. It is difficult and unfortunately people usually do not understand it, they do not support you. As for checking a hundred times, I do too, but I don't think it's wrong while we're in this state. I know how inadequate we are, and it's better to check a hundred times until we get better than to forget something. Congratulations and good luck to you and to everyone who is in such a terrible condition! I hope that soon in Bulgaria we will have the necessary specialists who can help us, and not to cram us with drugs at random. As for checking a hundred times, I do too, but I don't think it's wrong while we're in this state. I know how inadequate we are, and it's better to check a hundred times until we get better than to forget something. Congratulations and good luck to you and to everyone who is in such a terrible condition! I hope that soon in Bulgaria we will have the necessary specialists who can help us, and not to cram us with drugs at random. As for checking a hundred times, I do too, but I don't think it's wrong while we're in this state. I know how inadequate we are, and it's better to check a hundred times until we get better than to forget something. Congratulations and good luck to you and to everyone who is in such a terrible condition! I hope that soon in Bulgaria we will have the necessary specialists who can help us, and not to cram us with drugs at random.

   From the Author: To number 4: Hello! And I have been constantly analyzing these conditions for years and looking for the cause. I constantly analyze my past problems and actions to find the cause. I like to walk in places where there are not many people. Walking and looking at the world around you is a great environment to think philosophically about things. I think, I think and I can't understand myself. And every time all these depressive episodes are repeated. What I still discovered about myself: There is always something that acts as a catalyst that provokes them. But what I discovered about myself is that I will always find a reason to get depressed. Even if everything is fine, I will find something to crush me. My problems are that I am a very big perfectionist. Sometimes I'm too conscientious, although I try to demonstrate the opposite to people. At times I want to have more contacts, and I, like these people outside, in the restaurants to laugh and have fun. I was given the opportunity to go out in company, and just then I became depressed. On the one hand, I believe that my problems come from a lack of social contacts, but when I am given the opportunity to do so, it depresses me. Maybe because I see other people, how far ahead of me in social, spiritual and personal development? !! The truth is that I am very inexperienced in life, in communication and in everything. Only in my profession I may have been good, but as I said, I quit my job. Now I'm working on something else that is a "stumbling block" for me and this change that I made myself, so to speak, will finish me off ... About these obsessive thoughts and constant checking. I found that the more I check, think and analyze, the more this deepens. If I'm not sure I've locked the front door, I'll go back to check. Next time I will come back twice and the next time three times. This is obviously a disease that is like a spoiled child. The more you please him, the more it gets on your head. To number 2: you are right that I have to somehow transform my everyday life. But I have no idea. My interests are variable. I constantly jump from one thing to another. It will be difficult to find friends with whom I have similar interests, because it will be difficult to keep them. To number 1: then I just had no choice, so I sought the help of a psychiatrist. I thought then, even if I committed suicide, it had gone so far. A visit to a psychiatrist somewhat solved my problem with insomnia (something normal for many people with depression). But it doesn't cure me of depression. Then came these obsessions. Otherwise you are right about the sun .. it is also scientifically proven :)

   With mood swings, it is very likely to be Bipolar Affective Disorder.