About Relationships, Falling In Love And Common Happiness

The Story

Hello, I want to share my story, which some people will probably think is abnormal, but I am writing precisely because of this need to share. I'm not necessarily looking for advice, let anyone who wants to comment on something do it. I will read everything, I just hope there is not much cynicism. I will be 22 years old in a month. I never had a boyfriend. I'm not tormented by the thought that I didn't have it, because I don't feel old yet. But sometimes I feel very lonely, the feeling is unpleasant - cool, scary, hopeless as if. I am a believer and I know that God will bring me together with the person who needs it. I'm just a little tormented that it hasn't happened yet. I was in love, but unshared. Three boys also tried to get closer to me, but I didn't feel the same attraction. And I made big mistakes with two because I lied. It happened while I was abroad. First one met me on the street, he was very stubborn. I agreed to go to the movies, then we met again with his friends. I enjoyed it and the boy could have a conversation, intelligent and funny. I agreed on a third meeting, in private. We were with them and it so happened that we went to bed together. "Forced" me to have oral sex. I say "forced" because I didn't want to do it, but I agreed. I have no excuse for myself and I can't blame him. He then told me that he was not looking for a girlfriend and just wanted to "have fun". And she was there with him. Unfortunately, I had obviously not broken my head enough, after a month and a half, another such specimen was found. I had doubts about him too, but I was inclined to do the same with him. Even he was much more unpleasant to me afterwards and I had a hard time with the "adventure". To this day, I am disgusted by what I do and I don't want to be wrong that way anymore. However, I still hope that my man will show up. I want to ... I would even get married, even though I'm still young. Thanks if you took the time to read!

Last Updated
October 31, 2020
Author:
mistyskylar

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