About My Love At First Sight

Love at first sight exists, but whether only ashes will remain after the burning sudden fire depends only on us. Unfortunately, I am about to lose the last coals of this love before I find out if we are for each other at all, but it is a fact that this love has lasted for 21 years. And as in soaps, we are in seasons. Once upon a time we were 23, we met one night at my friend's house, who is a relative of his, and ... the spark ignited beautiful feelings that took over my mind, I thought about him, I felt beautiful and alive again. He was so kind and considerate that I felt like I was in a movie from the early twentieth century — I had the most fantastic first date, after which he didn't even kiss me. I must add that at that time I was separated from my husband and had a child by him, 2 years old. We decided with my love at first sight to call him Alex, to file for divorce, let him lend me money for that and let us be free together. We kept our relationship a secret, only his aunt's family knew. So far so good, but my husband decided he wanted me back after he was with other friends of his and would not give me a divorce. And when some quarrels and dramas started ... Finally he calmed down and signed by mutual consent. So far so good, but Alex is of Turkish descent and my father, and he was very authoritative, opposed our relationship in any way. We decided to slow down and see each other secretly again. The three of us went on endless walks in nature, and when my child was in the garden, I snuck into Alex's workplace and indulged in brief but passionate moments together. Things were going great until after an ugly alcoholic quarrel with his mother, the child's father decided to end his life. Of course I was blamed for that by her. I who provided a home and family for her son, and he wondered who to push and how much to drink, but enough - for the dead or good or nothing. The bad thing is that at his funeral this woman cursed me very badly.

I didn't understand what was going on then, but nine months later my father died, just suddenly. Things in my life went wrong, I allowed my ex-boyfriend to intervene, and he is charming, assertive, even impudent. And when he found out I was with someone else, he just had fun parting with Alex. I, the fool, wrapped myself in his charm, and Alex did not fight for me, did not say a word, did not say that he wanted to be with me - nothing. He simply withdrew, let me break my head with Nico, and indulged in my grief. Later, Nico and I lived together, Alex and I maintained a relationship until he returned the money I borrowed for the divorce and he called me on holidays. Niko was absent every other week for three days, explaining that he was being treated in Sofia. Five years later, in Nico's absence, I found myself in Alex's arms again. We continued to see each other when Niko was in Sofia. I was upset that he was in the hospital and I was having fun, but I didn't stop. Alex used to say "Just say it and I'll put 1000 euros in my pocket and the little one and I will go somewhere". Time passed, but he didn't take us anywhere. One day, however, I turned out to be pregnant - "So who is it from now ????" . I started avoiding Alex, and he hid in his shell again, and not only did he not look for me, but he went to work abroad. I gave birth to a beautiful four kilogram baby and I was left with doubts - who is the father. He looked like Nico over the years, but this charming dimple was neither mine nor his. Alex has a lovely one in the same place as my child. That was very confusing. Nadia, my baby, was crying a lot. I took care of her around the clock, with the household, my other child helped me a lot and that's how I managed, and Niko ... He was still a big presence in my life, but he started drinking to relieve the tension from work. So it came to half a liter a day and a liter as we have guests. He began to reach for me steadily.

I didn't know what to do - my mother was laughing at me, I was ashamed to drive him away / I'm already divorced / He had tried not to have girlfriends - I thought no hope at all then At one point the universe began, in fact, began a long time ago, but I'm blind to it. So the universe sent me text messages so that I could feel what Niko was doing. And ... HORROR - what I only saw in the movies was in my life - Nico led a double life. Hospital in Sofia - another time - my ex with a child a little of ours. I didn't make a fuss, I just suffered quietly and just wanted to talk to decide what to do, but I was beaten and threatened to commit suicide if I didn't marry him. And shortly before that, he swore to our child that he had neither a child nor another. I married him. I was like a wedding decor, and he was like a king. No one even suspected what was happening. He was the big deal for everyone, and I was the ugly half. Twenty days after his oaths, Nadia fell ill with an autoimmune disease and we came across the hospital where Nico was supposed to go.

The worries around the child took over and everything else remained in the background. To my joy and joint efforts, Nadia got better and I got some rest, she was already 5 years old. My life continued to revolve around my family, I pretended that everything was fine. A doorbell changed my life - I don't know if it confused me or contributed to my happiness. He was Alex's relative. He said he had just returned from abroad and wanted to see me. At first I refused, but then I gave my phone number. I call myself - we'll see each other for a while and then everyone on their way. Yes, but no - he had become even better, he had settled well abroad, but still alone. He invited me and the children to visit, and I said nothing. I felt that I have no right to ask for or take anything from him. After me he met his ex, the one before me. She was very happy for him, and how much he needed him and he was already together, despite the advice and caring statements of relatives and friends, he met her. And a spending of the money collected for years has started ... She is a great beauty, but she also loves money a lot. After a month he returned abroad alone, we kept talking, we talked for a long time. We were fine. I raised money and went on a trip to him. We stayed in a hotel and then at their place. We went wherever I wanted, we did everything we liked .... Again we were happy and in love. It was beautiful as in a fairy tale, but only for four days. We decided to meet again, but he did not dare to part with his girlfriend, and my husband took him to the children. So we continued for several years - secret meetings. He broke up with his girlfriend, but something still failed to get together.

I had to make an important decision - no matter how difficult it was for me, I left his life so as not to confuse him and find a partner with whom to start a family. And it happened. One day, after about a year, I was seized by a strange feeling of fear and anxiety. And even though I hadn't heard or seen Alex in months, I felt something was wrong with him. I was very scared, but I decided I was making it up. However, the feeling intensified. I decided to look at the face and ... here he was already married. The wedding was on the same day I felt uncomfortable. Strange, but he didn't look happy. The look on his face said, "I'm married now, stop asking me when I'm going to do it." This time I let go of my feelings and cried, roared, shouted and ... Still, I was glad Alex had what he wanted, though the questions remained unanswered. Several months passed. I found out that he lives abroad and she lives here. I really wanted to see her up close. I knew what worked, but I didn't know. It was not a fixed idea for me to see her, but fate still met us.

One day, with Niko, as we looked around, here and there, he got lost for a moment, talking to an employee. Come closer and ... it was Alex's wife. My head thumped, my ears screamed, the tension was just like my head was going to burst with tension. I had the feeling that the world had stopped and the universe was showing me what Alex had experienced years ago when he saw me with Nico. I think fairly. Well, she was a very nice woman, I really hoped she would make him happy. The next few days I didn't feel well, no matter how hard I tried to forget everything. I really wanted to see Alex for a while, just to see him. And ... my wish came true. Without calling or writing to him, I arrived in the city where he lives. I got off the bus, gathered my courage, and dialed his number. After three dials - did not answer. I told myself that I had to go to the hotel and at that moment he rang. When I heard his voice, I froze for a second, then came to my senses and told him I was in his city. At first he didn't believe it, then the excitement in his voice was uncontrollable. We made an appointment and I closed. I was in seventh heaven. Then I called him to help me check into the hotel, and he told me I would stay with him. Very surprised, I asked him how he would talk to his wife on Skype, they are still married, I do not want to do anything against his marriage, and he immediately made a script that everyone would be happy with. An hour later I was at the agreed meeting place. Joy made my face even fresher and younger, despite my age. He came and ... I spontaneously threw myself into his arms, and he responded with a passion I didn't think was still between us. After a short moment in which we had forgotten where we were, we took the subway and went to the store to buy food. He knew that I ate little, but special food, and it didn't cost a penny to be well.

When we went to them I was shocked - everything was as before, as I had left it. Some time ago, when we lived together for a while, I had created my own atmosphere in them. I turned this place into a home that smells like me. The questions kept multiplying in my head, but I left them for another time. I prepared dinner, we poured wine into my favorite glasses / we drank wine in them on the river bank / And ... we got into conversations. We hadn't seen each other for more than a year and we had a lot to say. All the time we held hands, as if in love, we looked at each other as such. And then ... we let our bodies speak for us and turned off the mind. There is no other moment, we have forgotten about everything and everyone. This is a moment that does not happen again. We hadn't stopped loving each other, we had just put our feelings under a heavy rock and now we were pushing him. When I came home, I cried almost all the way. I didn't understand what a hoax of fate this was. Having crazy sex with my husband imagining another. My face glowed at the thought of Alex. I have photos from then - they are unique - I am the face of happiness. I was completely confused and there was a reason. A few months later, Alex became a father. I expected more enthusiasm from him, but it will surely come with time. A year later, my husband signed a divorce by mutual consent because ... I just pressed him. Things are the same as before with the difference that he is my ex-husband. We haven't told the kids and I don't think we will, for now.

And as a free man, I asked myself many questions. I decided not to look for Alex, and he didn't write to me. I'm very sorry, but ... I won't press him. It's crazy, but I asked the universe for answers, ie how to continue our relationship with Alex. And here's what happened - I was going somewhere with Nico, he called a taxi and the taxi arrived, the car that Alex was driving and in which we made love. -The next day we went to have lunch at a restaurant and there was his wife and child. I'm sorry to say, but he likes another type of woman, and their baby is very cute. I felt very confused. In fact, I'm still confused, I don't know how to interpret these messages, even though I asked them from the universe. Years ago, I stayed with Nico because he threatened my children, he threatened me, and I couldn't do it to them. They are already big and they understand that things are not going well between Niko and me. The truth is that I love Alex very much, I have never stopped. But I know that Niko will pursue me not to love me, but to make me sick. So far, I'm doing well, but the years fly by, the children will take their own path, and I will still be that indecisive girl or will I finally become a confident woman. PP I will not edit, so please understand if I have errors Thanks But I know that Niko will pursue me not to love me, but to make me sick. So far, I'm doing well, but the years fly by, the children will take their own path, and I will still be that indecisive girl or will I finally become a confident woman. PP I will not edit, so please understand if I have errors Thanks But I know that Niko will pursue me not to love me, but to make me sick. So far, I'm doing well, but the years fly by, the children will take their own path, and I will still be that indecisive girl or will I finally become a confident woman. PP I will not edit, so please understand if I have errors Thanks