A Whole New Feeling

The Story

My partner and I have been together recently, but our relationship dates back about 10 years. We have always been close friends, we have trusted each other, we know each other quite well. At the moment we live separated and we are separated by many kilometers. We hear each other every day and write to each other all day. We are very committed to each other, because this relationship means a lot to both of us. My problem is that because of the distance between us, I already have a change in character. I have never been jealous !! I value my freedom terribly, I don't let them control me (please don't understand that I do what I want, of course, that to some extent I comply with my partner). Everyone has a past, but when I hear about his girlfriends (and he had 3, 2 of which I know) and I just UNCLEAN! The other day we waited for the topic of cohabitation and he mentioned to me (without detailed, of course), that he has lived for some time with his last 2 exes. The very idea made me sick, as if I had a lump in my throat and a black hole in my stomach, it was like a panic attack. Of course he didn't say anything to him, I just hinted that I didn't like talking more about this topic and we were done. But why did it happen, I do not understand what the reason is For me, jealousy is dictated by a lack of trust, self-confidence and if a person thinks he is not worthy enough for his partner. I have no problem on all these points. Why do I cringe like that and what can I do? I do not understand what the reason is? For me, jealousy is dictated by a lack of trust, self-confidence and if a person thinks he is not worthy enough for his partner. I have no problem on all these points. Why am I whining like that and what should I do? I do not understand what the reason is? For me, jealousy is dictated by a lack of trust, self-confidence and if a person thinks he is not worthy enough for his partner. I have no problem on all these points. Why am I whining like that and what should I do?

Last Updated
October 12, 2020
Author:
jerseydude010

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