I want to tell you the story of my girlfriend ... Not because I have bad feelings for her, but to make today's teenage girls think more about their actions and not make the mistakes she made. It all started when we were 14, 14 and something. Inseparable friends since elementary school, really good friends. We shared everything, we were almost ready to sacrifice our lives for each other ... You remember what it's about ... In high school, however, things changed. Prior to that, she was an intelligent, smart girl, committed to lessons and textbooks, and thought that her education was more important than "cool" parties. But with the entry into high school, everything changed. We hadn't seen each other all summer, we had only heard each other on the phones (for a number of reasons I won't list) and one day she told me that she has made a "huge change." I jokingly asked her if she had become a "cool chick", and she fell silent ... maybe she was offended. When we met in early September, the change was really huge. There was nothing left of the diligent girl, dressed in loose and loose clothes.
Her hair was cut strangely (like the current "freshness"), she wore tons of makeup (starting with foundation, powder, mascara, gloss and lipstick, pencils ...) and she definitely looked different. I couldn't recognize her at first - her style of dress was completely different. She said, "Look, I'm a cool chick now, aren't I?" In order not to offend her, I agreed, but I felt uncomfortable as we walked around the city. The three months I had been out of it had obviously had an effect. She was stopped by different people (and mostly older boys, 17-18 years old), talked to her, hugged her, even kissed her naughtily on the cheek. She had obviously become "popular." At first I thought he wouldn't want to talk to me now because I was ordinary. But her behavior toward me hadn't changed in the slightest! She cared for me, she valued me, she respected me, even though she had changed as a person. He went to discos regularly, and I don't know what exactly was going on there. She went combed, adjusted, and serious, and came home amused, torn, flushed, and sucked in the most surprising places. When we went to bed, she tried to tell me in detail exactly how the "party" went, but I didn't want to know ... I was afraid that she had become a naughty "underage prostitute". (We lived together in my aunt's house because we had moved specifically because of " the more elite teacher "in another city). Her success was rapidly declining. She was shocked by a five in the control, now the four satisfied her. She hung out mostly with boys, was friendly with the older ones, even hugged the graduates several times. Still, she didn't ignore me, appreciated my advice, and was nice to me. I often heard her say, "It's cool to be cool," or "I'm in the column at last." "cool babes" ...
Apparently she liked fame too much ... At 15 she made a set with a boy she hardly knew. We were at a party together, she had come a little drunk and in an hour or so she was drunk by the visor. I had also had a hard time with alcohol, but we "had to have fun!" Make it in the boy's parents' bedroom, in front of several boys, his friends. Two hours later, when I went to see her, already worried, she was cuddling with one of them. There was no sign of the boy who had made her the set. When we got home, she wasn't the least bit embarrassed by the fact that she had sex in one night with two different boys whose name she knew ... and the length of the "tool." And so it began. Coupons, alcohol, lots of boys, sex, and cigarettes.
Indiscriminate sex, "fun", drugs ... We are currently 21. I am a student and I study. She lives with me in an apartment because she has no money for her own. He had two abortions in 16-21 years. She has been addicted to alcohol for several years and smokes weed while not pushing anyone. Even I can label her a whore, but I wouldn't. And she is HIV-positive. I don't know how many years of life she has left, but I try to make them as beautiful as possible. Because the girl she once was deserved them.
He also deserves the girl who wanted to be "cool" and who didn't forget me, even when she could have almost anyone as a friend. Girls, don't try to be anything else for anyone! It's not worth 21 to not have a clear future and probably have a few years of life left, because of a few high school years in which "you lived your life"!
1 little_effy18 answered
Really touching :( maybe there was a reason for the radical change, but it doesn't matter, it's in the past. The important thing is that now she suffers from it and so do you. I completely understand how you feel. Good luck!