Hello. I'm a robot. The whole story starts with a very poor family. It's not even a family, because my father left me and my mother when I was a baby and never cared about us again. Otherwise, it was a great true love between students ... and here's a mistake, I was born. I am a huge mistake. If they had studied, right? Anyway. My whole childhood was a misery. I've never been hungry, or at least I don't remember. But I remember watching what other clothes they had, what toys they had, how happy they were ... I asked my mother why I wasn't like them, why I didn't have the things they had, and she told me "be good and you'll have everything". I was good and I tried to get better, but still nothing changed. I studied a lot because I had nothing else to do. Soon the others started making fun of me, beating me. I was rejected. They had all sorts of activities, and I just stood by and watched and dreamed. I dreamed of being a boy like them ... And so for so many years I tried and dreamed of one day being happy, but things just didn't happen. I couldn't make friends with anyone. Catch a boyfriend? What was I supposed to do? To kidnap her? NO no, I couldn't even do that because I had to be good. But I kept telling myself that one day I would find a job, change, meet a good woman, and do my best for my family so that they would never be unhappy. Naive, isn't it? Well, that day never came, and a lot of years passed ... and one big nothing. I once fell in love with a colleague because, apart from work, I didn't find women anywhere else, but I just became a laughing stock. I didn't understand the others at all anymore. And I'm sitting alone and that's ... It's been many years. Now all I do is eat, sleep and work. I'm a machine, just a robot that will run as long as it can and then be thrown in the trash. I write all this because I want help. But I don't even know what help I need. I'm so desperate. Please man, have mercy on me and try to help me because I can't. I want to be human too. I don't want to be a robot.
1 yoyomikas answered
First of all, to start with the reason for your condition, you are looking for it in the material lack, I find it in the lack of proper upbringing. I'm not saying that you are rude, but that you have shortcomings, because an upbringing includes both being good, respectful and excellent, and not being jealous of other people's property, finding ways to do something, being sufficient / not having a toy carve from wood, fix a found toy /, the ability to defend yourself from attacks by classmates is also a kind of upbringing, you lack social skills, the ability to treat women, the ability to be a leader, etc. Of course all parents do omissions and we should not be angry with them, because it is really impossible to teach your child everything, and most parents have so much capacity, that is, whether they are all of themselves and have made us as much as they can, that is why we are what we are. How to help yourself The first thing I recommend is to develop your social skills, read psychological books on this topic, start with "How to Make Friends and Influence Others" - Dale Carnegie has it on the net for free. In the future, if you can't ask yourself, I will help again. I had a similar problem as a child with the difference that I had the ability not to envy, everything else was like yours, but 25 years ago I came across this book, then many others, now I have a perfect family 18 year old son and most importantly I learned what is happiness. I wish you luck! In the future, if you can't ask yourself, I will help again. I had a similar problem as a child with the difference that I had the ability not to envy, everything else was like yours, but 25 years ago I came across this book, then many others, now I have a perfect family 18 year old son and most importantly I learned what is happiness. I wish you luck! In the future, if you can't ask yourself, I will help again. I had a similar problem as a child with the difference that I had the ability not to envy, everything else was like yours, but 25 years ago I came across this book, then many others, now I have a perfect family 18 year old son and most importantly I learned what is happiness. I wish you luck!