A Lot Of Love, A Lot Of Infidelity And A Great Betrayal ..-squirt_queen_19

Hello, I want to tell my story, because I am very confused, desperate, hurt, and I love him and I do not know what to do ... We met about 2 years ago, when I was accommodated next to his room in the dormitory, we are both students . We didn't know each other yet, he started taking me down, we talked in the corridors, got to know each other a little and had sex. Then it was over because I found out you had a girlfriend and she was from the dorm. Summer came and there was generally no contact with him until the fall of the next school year. Then he managed to enchant me again and said that he had nothing to do with her anymore and not long after I almost lived in his room, I went back to mine just to take a bath and see my roommates :) .. It was nice I I fell in love ... I had never been with a boy so long before, it makes sense to go to bed with him every night, in the morning to wake up next to him, to have breakfast, to have dinner together. Everything was so nice .. but after about 3 months I realized that he continues to meet his ex, and not only with her .. and with many others just for sex .. so he told me. I didn't want to lose him, we were separated for a few days, but I missed him so much, I couldn't do without him and he told me that they meant nothing to him, that he just needed to diversify sometimes, I agreed to be with him anyway ... And so it lasted until December until the middle of somewhere (2011), we started to fight a lot more, but until then, no matter how much we fought, in the end we were still together, he told me how much he loves me and how he can't do without me, and I couldn't do without him .. I love him .. We went on vacation for the holidays, suddenly he told me not to call him because I had lied to him all the time, he asks me if I was in the city where we study with a boy other than him, I lied to him, I told him no, because I know he will be very angry, because before I had told him about all the boys I was with, but not about this one. because they knew each other, but I was sure that this boy didn't tell him anything either, because I know him very well. He told me he knew everything, that I was a big liar ... bloody ... I was just playing with him. I didn't know what was going on. Until we came back now on January 21 and he called me and said he wanted to talk. However, before him my best friend called me, with whom we are from the same course, we lived together in a dormitory, we were always together, she knew everything about him, how much I love him .. when and why we fought, she advised me to I leave him to find someone who won't cheat on me, he'll just be with me, I can even say that she hated him for the way she talked about him. And I arrive, my friend is standing in my room waiting for me, and she told me she wanted to talk, I said well and we went down to the cafe. I asked her what was going on and she said nothing in her eyes without trembling: "I'm with ... We've been together for a month, I spent the holidays with them, we were together, I love him and I know that he loves me too, if I thought it would be something short-lived I wouldn't let it happen to him because you're my friend and I love you, but I think things between us are serious, I think you never loved him and he's just one a whim for you, sorry very much ". This is what my best friend, whom I loved as a sister, told me, I cried on my shoulder and when we quarrel with him about something. I didn't know what was happening to me, I was standing and just watching, I couldn't believe it ... And she told me to know, that you can't believe it, but it's true. I just got up and went up to my room, I didn't even have the strength to cry ... After about 5 minutes he came to me and told me that he preferred to tell me first. And he went on to explain to me that he was sorry, but it also happened that she was the woman of his life. I cried, it became clear to me how he learned about this boy I was with before him ... and who knows what else she told him .. I was not with others, but I just shared that one of my ex is constantly looking for me and he wants us to get together again, and I figured she might have told him that too, and I was right. I got bad why didn't I tell him that the other one was looking for me, etc. He said very harsh words to me ... Then when I stopped crying, I calmed down a bit and told me, that he didn't want us to ruin our friendship with him because of him, and he wanted us both to be friends again and all three of us to understand each other. I said it couldn't happen, she came while we were talking and told me that she was very sorry for how much she loved me and forgave her for the act. I bowed. I told them that if you weren't happy with me, I hope you were with her, and I said that I would try to overcome it and be friends with her at least. I was left alone, crying all night, I couldn't blink for days, I couldn't believe it and realize it. I was alone, there was no one to share with. After 3 days he came to me. He told me that he appreciated what I had done, that I had forgiven them, because if I had not forgiven them, SHE would have decreased to be completely happy, she had suffered a lot for me. I was terribly sick because no one could understand what was wrong with me !!! He sat next to me and asked me to tell him everything I wasn't about the other boy ... and I told him everything. We were silent, he came and kissed me, I did not back down, he told me that he loved me, I asked him how do you love her And he told me he didn't know how, but he loved both of us! I didn't know what to say, he hugged me, we started kissing, we had sex, but very quietly, because she was in the other room - in his room, and we are neighbors and everything can be heard because the walls are thin. So, we saw each other secretly for a few days, one day she came home and in the evening he slept with me, and again he explains to me how much he loves me, that he is confused, that he doesn't know how to tell her that he wants to leave her ... because she would be left alone without me — her best friend — and without him. He felt sorry for her. I couldn't stand it, I told him to choose, I would give him as much time as he wanted, but to choose, because I couldn't do that, I know what I agreed to ... not only about having sex together, but I love him very much, I was happy that he still thought of me. And I told him to choose either she or me. He told me he would think and tell me. Ok. I let him think. One night his roommate came to my room and stayed for a long time watching TV, drinking coffee, we were friends, he told me how sorry he was that this was how things turned out between me and he had nothing more between us and left. . He then came and told me that I was the same again ... I took boys to my room ... and he told me that he chose her, but to be careful what I did, not to be with another boy, that I was badly spelled. I got angry, I told him to leave, and that I didn't want to see him anymore, that I would do what I wanted with whoever I wanted, hit me, many times. He told me he was sorry that you've wasted time with someone like me ... and that he doesn't want to see me. And now we don't just talk because last night I was talking on the phone with a friend and he came to my room again ... you thought there was a boy with me, he looked everywhere, even in the bathroom, if I had hidden him there, I said to get rid of him, he has no right to confuse me and he said nothing and left. And now I don't know what to do, you may have found what I said confused, but I'm also very confused. I just know I don't want to see anyone else, I want him. I love him more than anything in the world and I don't know what to do .... Give me advice please, if I missed something ask. that there was a boy with me, he looked everywhere, even in the bathroom, lest I had hidden him there, I told him to leave, that he had no right to confuse me, and he said nothing and left. And now I don't know what to do, you may have found what I said confused, but I'm also very confused. I just know I don't want to see anyone else, I want him. I love him more than anything in the world and I don't know what to do .... Give me advice please, if I missed something ask. that there was a boy with me, he looked everywhere, even in the bathroom, lest I had hidden him there, I told him to leave, that he had no right to confuse me, and he said nothing and left. And now I don't know what to do, you may have been confused by what I said, but I'm also very confused. I just know I don't want to see anyone else, I want him. I love him more than anything in the world and I don't know what to do .... Give me advice please, if I missed something ask.