Hello, My boyfriend and I have been together for 5 months now. At the moment everything is perfect, of course, we are happy together. But I'm not myself. Something happened in the first month. He had to go out late at night to accompany his cousin. And while they were at the club, one of his cousin's friends kissed him. He replied. At first he told me in a completely different way. That some drunken girl came and just hugged him. And two weeks later, at midnight, he woke me up to tell the truth. I don't know, I just reacted more calmly then. Then I realized that I just liked him and I was not so deeply attached. Although I am terribly very sensitive and jealous, I managed to be cool. I told him to calm down and forget about it. I knew and I still know that he loves me. I still trust him because if he says something, he really does. In fact, it is the only thing that gives me strength. So, things passed, passed. And I'm already madly in love. And then, after 4 months, this incident began to torment me. While I'm alone, the night before I go to bed, it's in my head. When I wake up in the morning, this is my first thought. At work, while I'm doing something, I think about it forever. I can't stop crying, I can't stand still. After this incident, we promised to say everything. When he tells me that a girl has written or when he says he will go out with friends, I just despair. I tried to tell him how scared I was that someone would take it away from me, hoping to hear something that would calm me down. I didn't tell him that was the reason, because I know how sorry he is and I don't want to make him feel bad again. Even if I tell him, hardly anything will change. I don't know how long this will last, it's been like this for two weeks - I don't have the strength anymore. These feelings ruin me. I don't know how to help myself.
1 creamyholesss answered
Love is to be happy, not to be sad, so if you don't feel good with him, just go ahead and find someone to respond to your feelings.