A Bisexual Friend Seems Strange To Me

The Story

I'm writing this completely unnecessary story here because I'm ashamed to share what's going on in my head with anyone, if it's not anonymous. The truth is that I myself do not know what is happening - it is complete chaos, so I will be happy to give some advice. So, I'm a 17-year-old boy, a rebel, I don't split anyone's basma, I'm not up for a serious relationship. To be honest, I only use girls for sex, but I always tell myself directly what I want beforehand and let them decide for themselves. My lifestyle is influenced by my company and so I started smoking weed at the age of 13, I have been using heavier drugs for a year, but in small quantities. I can control myself and I know when to stop - that's what all future addicts obviously say, but I'm absolutely sure of myself. I want to try everything in this life, but obviously these things are not enough for me and now I have started to do some inexplicable nonsense and so I get annoyed with myself - I have a bisexual friend, I generally do not support this thing a man to be with a man and so on, but this man acts somehow strange to my great curiosity, and without realizing it lately, I began to ask him too much what it was like to touch a boy. I'm afraid he won't think I'm suggesting something to him, I have no desire to touch a man, but the stories excite me and I just want to watch from the side how he has sex with a man. I played gay porn, but it doesn't work that way, quite the opposite. If I tell this to one of my friends they will make me bisexual, but in fact I hate the idea of ​​having sex with a man and I would never try. But if I wouldn't, what's the explanation for that? what's going on in my head and why does my bisexual friend act like that? I will be happy if you share your opinion, because I am extremely ashamed of myself because of these things and I do not know what to do.

Last Updated
August 03, 2020
Author:
estefenia_riveras

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