A Bad Nightmare Is Suicide

The Story

Hi, I'm a 14 year old, 8th grade girl and I want to share with you what crazy things I'm dreaming about. First let me tell you that I really want to go back to the old school and think about it all the time, and I'm just starting to dream about it. I dreamed that I went to my old school and went inside, but the cleaners said they would call the principal to come and kick me out, and they went to call her. During this time I went to the gym and just to enter, right in front of the door I committed suicide and I remember that in my dream I saw only blood. Then somehow I saw how when I killed myself and everyone came and saw me lying on the ground. That is, I told you briefly, but it is 2 times longer. In fact, they don't let us in there because we are already "external students" and they chase us and quarrel with us, and that's what really happened in the dream. And I really want to go inside and go back there to study, but mom and dad don't want to take me back there and now I'm quite sorry and depressed and sometimes I wonder why I live ... Is it so hard for my parents to bring me back there again ... will it cost them that much ??? I can't explain it to myself, I want it, I don't want anything else, I wanted it for Christmas, I wanted it for my birthday, and I will always want it, because when I come back, I'm sure everything will be fine as before. It seems to me that my parents don't want me to be happy ... :( because that's all I want to be really happy, and I always wonder "do I want so much" ... it's even free ... it doesn't cost money ...; (; (; (I'd better die if it goes on like this ... And it was my worst nightmare ... and there are a bunch of other ... similar ... and related to school again ...

Last Updated
September 06, 2020
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