6 Months Of Pain

The Story

Hello! I am a man of 25 and approximately 6 months ago I ended a relationship. I had 3 attempts with this girl. She is the strongest love in my life so far. I gave too much for her, I don't know why and I gave her 3 more chances after the first failure, maybe I just wished she had changed. The reasons for the separation are not important. I don't know exactly why I'm writing after I've tried almost everything to forget it. Alcohol did not help, nor did sex with another, sports, fighting, hobbies. I am afraid of the next relationship due to repeated disappointments, I can't even work or study, the thought of it has obsessed me all my life. This depression hasn't let me go for so many months, I've lost hope that the pain will stop somehow. Many people kill the old love with a new one, but somehow I know inwardly that I can't trust and have feelings for the next girl, and I don't want to hurt anyone for who I am. I am terribly lonely, but no one would tolerate a lifeless ghost that, even if not so lonely, would hurt the man who gave it a chance. So I can't have a relationship, but I can't be alone. Sex doesn't work, I tried, even though it was against my principles. I only think of self-destructive things.

Nobody understands me and why I behave like that, everyone thinks that I am exaggerating and suggesting. My friends think that in time I will pass, but I do not think that this thing is in time. The first 2 times with this girl were damaging, but somehow I learned to live with the pain and continue, but I already feel how everything is different, I have too much burden. I will be grateful if someone gives me some way out that I like. who, though not so lonely, will hurt the man who gave him a chance. So I can't have a relationship, but I can't be alone. Sex doesn't work, I tried, even though it was against my principles. I only think of self-destructive things. Nobody understands me and why I behave like that, everyone thinks that I am exaggerating and suggesting. My friends think that in time I will pass, but I do not think that this thing is in time. The first 2 times with this girl were damaging, but somehow I learned to live with the pain and continue, but I already feel how everything is different, I have too much burden. I will be grateful if someone gives me some way out that I like. who, though not so lonely, will hurt the man who gave him a chance. So I can't have a relationship, but I can't be alone. Sex doesn't work, I tried, even though it was against my principles.

I only think of self-destructive things. Nobody understands me and why I behave like that, everyone thinks that I am exaggerating and suggesting. My friends think that in time I will pass, but I do not think that this thing is on time. The first 2 times with this girl were damaging, but somehow I learned to live with the pain and continue, but I already feel how everything is different, I have too much burden. I will be grateful if someone gives me some way out that I like. I only think of self-destructive things. Nobody understands me and why I behave like that, everyone thinks that I am exaggerating and suggesting. My friends think that in time I will pass, but I do not think that this thing is on time.

The first 2 times with this girl were damaging, but somehow I learned to live with the pain and continue, but I already feel how everything is different, I have too much burden. I will be grateful if someone gives me some way out that I like. I only think of self-destructive things. Nobody understands me and why I behave like that, everyone thinks that I am exaggerating and suggesting. My friends think that in time I will pass, but I do not think that this thing is in time. The first 2 times with this girl were damaging, but somehow I learned to live with the pain and continue, but I already feel how everything is different, I have too much burden. I will be grateful if someone gives me some way out that I like.

Last Updated
August 06, 2020
Author:
srta_roja

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