28 Years, Loneliness And Depression ...

The Story

I don't even know how to start my confession. For a long time I thought about whether to write it at all and whether it makes any sense at all. In the end, I decided that I should share it with someone, even complete strangers. Maybe it's easier for me ... a little. I am a 28 year old boy and I have never had a boyfriend, I have never met love, I have never loved, I have never been loved. And it hurts me, it hurts terribly, I hide it from people, but recently it started eating me from the inside, it sucks to eat me, to the point that I get depressed from the thought that if I continue like this I will be alone forever. In general, I have never felt weak in my life, now for the first time I feel, and I feel really weak. I can't control my feelings and emotions. I know where my problem is, I just don't have any approach to women, I've never had, I don't even know what to talk to them, after all, they are not men to talk about cars, football, etc. I am more anxious and shy internally, although outwardly it seems the exact opposite and I have no experience with women. I am horrified at the thought of going out with a girl I like, standing together and having nothing to say and just looking at our phones. I can't imagine anything worse. And how can I find a boyfriend nowadays? With this huge gap in communication between people? Writing to complete strangers on Facebook and stocking them up ... seems super dumb to me and I would never do it. And so day after day, my life goes on, the people around me get married, have children, families, and I ... stand alone and I'm not even close to finding my soul mate. It's like waiting for a girl to write to me, take the first step, and say, "Hey, I like you, be with me." which I know can't happen. I will soon hit 30 and everyone will make fun of me for being an "old bachelor". I think I have to stop here, I'm starting to make even bigger movies ... Thank you all for your attention!

Last Updated
September 08, 2020
Author:
dranoelyomin

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