Which Of The Two To Choose

The Story

Hello, My story is long, but I will try to tell it briefly. I had a friend with whom I lived for 8 years. We loved each other a lot, we lived well, the only problems we had were his jealousy and the European football he played. Our sex life was boring (it's my fault here, I didn't want to try new things, somehow I didn't like it, it was all a matter of habit). One summer day I met a boy I was dating in my school years and things happened. We slept together, then we started writing and hearing and fell in love. Our feelings were mutual. After 4 months of suffering and crying, I broke up with my friend. The other boy and I kept hearing and seeing, he has serious intentions. My ex-boyfriend and I didn't stop talking either. He kept calling and harassing me mentally, he wanted us to get back together, until one day I found out that he was corresponding with another girl and at the same time he wanted us to meet again. He says he has no feelings for her, but calls her with kind words. I'm very confused. I don't know which of the two to choose. I don't know how I feel about my ex-boyfriend - I'm angry that there is another, some kind of friendly love or affection. He comes from a good family, but I don't enjoy having sex with him. We have moved away for 4 months and I don't know if we will be able to get closer as before. I tell him I love him and I don't know if I feel it. My feelings for the other boy are not the same (in the beginning there was a huge thrill, now we want each other again but it's not so strong). I really enjoy talking, we do a lot of things together, I need and want to hear it. I don't know who I feel for. Is the second one a momentary falling in love (we've been seeing each other for eight months now) and the fact that our sex is going well. Do I still love my ex-boyfriend. I am tormented by the thought of having to sleep with him. I'm not mentally ready and I don't know if I can give him what he wants (and what I can easily give to the other boy). I tell him I love him, but I don't know if I feel it and it's easier for me to tell the other person. How do I know which one I love?

Last Updated
August 12, 2020
Author:
ogn_lol

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