Fear-ewuss

Hello! My problem has been around for a long time. I had a lot of friends, I loved to travel, go out, have fun, etc., but that's not the case anymore. There was a kind of fear in me - a fear of how others would perceive me, what they would think of me, how they would react to me. It started as anxiety, stomach cramps, nausea, I gradually limited my contacts, my outings. Sometimes my fingers trembled with great anxiety, which I naturally tried to hide. All this went in another direction - I changed my eating habits, almost did not eat, which is happening now, my stomach became irritated and as if the fear became even greater, which even more negatively affected my social life, my going out limited to a minimum, as did my "circle of friends." With the various invitations, I always found some excuses that I could not, I was busy, etc. (a kind of defensive reaction). The fact is that now, apart from my relatives, there is no one left, let alone a friend. I visited a psychologist, but it didn't help. I try to overcome this fear, but ... again this feeling and the thought of not being rejected appear. It's so strong that I'm even afraid of how the person next to me would react if, for example, I said I wanted to go to the toilet, if I sneezed, if I coughed. In general, I have never had much self-confidence, on the contrary. Also, I have always tried to please others and first my relatives and friends to be happy, and then me. I realize that what is happening is not good. The thought remains, but I don't want to be alone anymore, I want to overcome this fear, to have friends again, to have fun, to have a person next to me. I would be happy if I received any advice. I felt better sharing. Thanks for your time! :)