Hello!
I am writing to you in the hope that you will give me some advice ... I am a man of 20 years and I am completely alone, I am already overwhelmed by anxiety, despair, anger, self-pity, everything. When I say that I am alone, I mean that it is in the literal sense - I lost my parents a year and a half ago, I have no siblings, I have no grandparents, I literally have no relatives ... or even if I have, I do not know them.
Last year I sold my father's car enough to have some money so I could study - I sold it with pure luck for BGN 2,500. I calculated that if I enroll in a university and live in a dormitory, my billing costs will be much lower, and I will be among people - my parents and I lived in a rented apartment, I don't even have inherited properties, or at least I don't know about such - Is there any way to find out if I inherited something from somewhere? My grandparents' apartment was sold many years ago ... I don't know if their parents owned anything. I don't even know what permanent address to register within the municipality!
Until the state of emergency, I tried my best to be busy, to be among people, so as not to be left alone with my thoughts. From last February until now I changed 3 jobs - I was a real estate broker, a cashier, and finally a warehouse worker, where I was laid off ... at the moment I live on my last salary, and my savings would be enough for at most three more months.
Give me an idea of what to do, please! I really have no one to talk to, no one to give me advice on ... is there something like an AA gathering online, just for people prone to depression? I just need to talk to people ... share with someone ... and I don't have the money for a psychologist. And I don't have drugs, that's why I haven't tried for sure, haha.
Also do you know anyone who needs manpower? Here, the university is already bothering me - I have exercises for which attendance is mandatory, so I need to work with flexible working hours ... I would literally clean, drag like a porter, I would do anything, just to have a job! I also have more or less good spoken English, my level is between B1 / B2. Any advice is welcome ... for anything. I just don't have any connections, and an awful lot of people have already been laid off and open job positions are taken like hotcakes by people more experienced and capable than me - I post my CV in a lot of places, but they don't call me. I don't know what to do, and the fact that I've been sitting in the dormitory alone and isolated for 17 days now doesn't help me at all - the only thing I do all day is a study and read ... I try to be busy, but it's evening extremely difficult not to think about anything.
Take care and appreciate your loved ones and what you have because when you lose it you will realize that it is too late .... and be alive and healthy!