Come Back

Why did he abandon me, he dumped me as a useless thing. You didn't even have the courage to do it all at once and finish. It stretched things, prolonging my agony for months. I asked you what was there - "nothing, I'm tired, problems at work". Do you want to go out - "I have a lot of work". Do you want to separate - "you only think about nonsense". Well obviously it wasn't nonsense. Whoever needed this procrastination had obviously decided. What I did and where I went wrong - I tried so hard. I am independent, I did not bother you with my problems, I was beautiful, supported. I'm not beautiful anymore - I have no desire to support myself, and there is no one for me. I only loved you. I've loved you for 13 years, you were the greatest man. You gave me everything I needed - security, protection. I knew I had my back to you, that even if I staggered there would be someone to catch me, although I did not stagger. I felt confident and optimistic with you. In two months, it will be three years since we separated. I told you terrible and nasty words, I was so offended and hurt that I was abandoned, not the forsaken. My big ego ... I'm doing well so far - I mean everyday life. I found a hobby that fills the long hours of loneliness. I enrolled and learned English and also the College of Economics and graduated. I pay my bills, I meet people. But I'm so lonely. There isn't even a day in those three years when I haven't thought about you. My first thought in the morning is about you. I dream about you. I recently dreamed of you several nights in a row. Such good things - that we are together again, that you tell me you are sorry and you will never leave me again. I know this dream will not come true. My good dreams never come true, only the bad ones. Please, come back, I miss you so much, please. You were everything to me, the only family I had, the only person I felt so close to. I'm scared, I feel like I'm walking on a thin rope over a monstrous precipice - just one wrong move and I'll fly. It's awful to be alone, to rely only on yourself, to maintain hypocritical friendships that only rob your soul. I need you, you complemented me, you gave me strength. When we were together I was not afraid of anything. Please come back. Please, God, wink at me, let's be together again. It's awful to be alone, to rely only on yourself, to maintain hypocritical friendships that only rob your soul. I need you, you complemented me, you gave me strength. When we were together I was not afraid of anything. Please come back. Please, God, wink at me, let's be together again. It's awful to be alone, to rely only on yourself, to maintain hypocritical friendships that only rob your soul. I need you, you complemented me, you gave me strength. When we were together I was not afraid of anything. Please come back. Please, God, wink at me, let's be together again.