And Sex Started To Limp ...

The Story

We have been together for three years. My problem is implied in the title. I'm 18, he's 19. For a long time now, things just haven't been going well, and I'm the only one suffering from the whole thing. But hope really dies last, my naivety obviously too ... We both live in different cities, very little distance from each other. We study (I'm still in school, he graduated and is now studying for the exams, which are a month after admission to the university). I will start work soon. In general, we do not have much free time (at least I do), in theory he should not have, but in practice things are quite different. And this is where the problems between us come from. In 1 month we have only been out 2 times. I understand, to study for the exams and not to go out, but he constantly goes out with his friends. Beaches, discos, cafes, trips to other cities, and before me he develops theories that he is very busy with learning.

Let them go out, I've never had a problem with that for these years. They are his friends, I understand. They are from children together. It never crossed my mind to tear it away from them (and it's none of my business). They are an important part of his life - I understand and respect them. Many times I have offered him to go out with them myself, to have fun. I don't call him when he's with them, nor do I go with him when he goes out "like a man." He has complete freedom at all and I have never obliged him to be with me or to take me with him. He goes out with them when he wants and as much as he wants. I don't even ask him where they're going so I don't bother him. I didn't want to be like other women - to mutter to him and make him feel limited or that I was violating his privacy.

However, he understood freedom as freedom. He has been openly ignoring me for a long time to have fun with them. Unlike him, I don't have that much free time (I also go to help my mother at work) and I always watch when I have time to spend it with him first. He can be with his friends if he wants to be in the city 24 hours a day. In 1 month we have only been out 2 times. And last time he was in a hurry to go out with them and neither the sex came from this quarrel, nor could we talk. Today we agreed to go out again at 4 o'clock and in the end he comes out again with the excuse - "Darling, there will be a match, next time!" Don't be angry, I love you! "When I tell him I won't be able to in the next week and see you in two weeks at the earliest, he seems indifferent. I don't want to make scandals and grumble to him like an 'old mother-in-law' to be with me." but i'm not made of iron after all! And I am a person and I have sex and I want intimacy, tenderness. Let him go out with them, but don't ignore me that way. When we are together we have fun, laugh, sex is perfect, he has a great passion, it always ends more than once, he tells me how his day went, his views on life. I do not see what, for example, in me would be the reason for his absence, since I have always predisposed him to be comfortable and cozy? As for the appearance, I would say that I keep myself in shape. By no means do I lack male attention, on the contrary. But my heart does not allow me to cheat on him, I have moral principles and if I do, I have to hate myself as a person (obviously he knows that I am faithful to him to the point of pain and he accepts this loyalty of mine as a given).

I get along with his friends differently - and that's not the reason. I love him very much, but I can't do that anymore. I don't want to be accepted, like the girl muttering to him like a wife, but I don't feel okay anymore. Young people, and sex only 2 times a month, no conversations and intimacy - then why I was nervous. I'm very sick and it's stuck in my throat. I just wear myself out emotionally, accumulating everything in myself. I know he has feelings for me, he looks for me every day, but I don't just have to hear each other and write to each other virtually, I want closeness, touch, understanding, conversations. The very minimum of a relationship. Sam urges me "zorlyan" to cheat on him. He didn't want us to break up, he didn't want to lose me, he loved me very much, I was the girl for him - and I what? do I have to get used to it and suppress my feelings and desires? How can I show him and say that he is about to lose me with these actions? I'm desperate, I love him, but I don't know what to do ... take my rags and leave him or stay to show him where he's wrong? Please advice and thank everyone who will take the time!

Last Updated
August 17, 2020
Author:
barelylegalbaby02

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